Newly diagnosed - am I crazy?
I’m newly diagnosed with ulcerative colitis and still trying to figure out what my “normal” is.
I was first diagnosed in April with left-sided colitis/proctosigmoiditis. I wasn’t taking any medication from April through June, and when I ended up in the hospital in June (I went myself because bleeding came back). Went through so many GI doctors from June to now.
my colonoscopy showed that the inflammation was limited to just the rectum/proctitis.
I’m now taking oral mesalamine, mesalamine suppositories, and mesalamine rectal suspension.
At this point, I feel really good. I have normal, formed bowel movements usually once every morning, and occasionally I’ll go again after I get home from the gym. I don’t have diarrhea, urgency, abdominal pain, or frequent bowel movements.
My biggest issue right now is that I’ve become OBSESSED with checking my stool for blood. I’m talking about literally inspecting it and even touching/breaking apart my stool looking for the slightest hint of red. If I see even the tiniest speck or slightly reddish area, I immediately start wondering if I’m flaring.
For those of you who have been dealing with UC longer: how do you actually know when you’re in remission? Do you eventually stop analyzing every single bowel movement? Can you still occasionally see a tiny speck of red and be doing well?
My doctor wants me to stick with Mesalamine before going on a biologic which I wanted to originally do in June. I am doing a calprotectin sometime in September (my Drs order) and we’ll go from there. My new IBD specialist said my case is strange and usually pushes for biologics but because of the healing from April-June without medication he wants to do another colonoscopy in October.
I’m leaving for my honeymoon in 2 days, and mentally this has really been taking a toll on me. I want to enjoy my trip instead of analyzing every bowel movement and convincing myself something is wrong. I’d really appreciate hearing how other people learned to trust their bodies again after being newly diagnosed.