Update :3
Update on the bf situation, he is like, so goddamn sweet and goddamn awesome, as well as being hot after all, and gosh, don't get me started on the FINE ASS Voice OML 😖.
Anyways, last night, I told him how I've been like feeling ill and that how I've been coughing alot and that it hurt every time I had a cough, then he sent these messages >w< like genuinely he is the sweetest thing in the world, and I love him to bits, not only that, he talks to me as if I'm a human being, and yes, I know, that's like every other decent person, but like, you gotta understand, my past 2 and only exs treated me like garbage and yes, both online, (so is my current one) but like, my exs seemed to only care about sexual pleasure and all that related stuff, however, Guto (my nickname for him) is the opposite, he makes me feel deserving of love, deserving of happiness and affection, and I honestly am so grateful for it, and if you're seeing this post, Guto, eu te amo <3
Also, been using Duolingo and my own Google translation search to learn Brazilian Portuguese (his native language) so I can prove to him that I love him to bits and that so he feels comfortable with expressing his native language infront of me, and yes, I've seen it before when ppl don't like their partner to speak in their native language for god knows reasons.
Lastly, I just wanted to say how much he's helped with my overall mental health, now yes, I know it was bad ish, but now, I feel like in some way, he's healed all the trauma and depression I've encountered, and so I'm thankful for him.
Sorry to rant so long, I just wanted to update you all on the situation, and I hope you all have a good morning, and if I don't see you, good evening, good afternoon and good night :3
P.s, I believe in all you guys and believe you will all find the one :3