u/Firm_Emotion_

I never had a plotter before so I don’t know what to look out for, especially when it comes to buying them second hand. What are your experiences with plotters, and what do you think of silhouette portrait 3? I’m thinking of using it mainly for bookbinding (complete beginner).

Also when did you start using your own plotter when you were a beginner? I can’t tell if having a plotter might be something that isn’t that urgent for now. I found one for very cheap on Kleinanzeigen but they sell only the machine and it’s cable, nothing else with it so should I not buy that and get one with all the additional supplies?

TW: mentions of psychological problems

So I’ve been having wide spread pain on my upper body for the last 6 years by now, it started out of nowhere when I was 17.

The pain got so bad I had to drop out of my second year because one day, when I was already not feeling mentally well, I felt some random loss of sensation and had a panic attack so bad I couldn't properly walk for 2 months straight after it. I went to the doctor while barely being able to hold myself up. He wrote a referral to the ER for me and I went there, they did some tests found nothing and let me go. Then I went to my doctor again, and he accused me of attention seeking??? I got mad and told him to „do his job“ and it got me nowhere, now I’m afraid to go to any doctor about it, every one of them looks at me with belittlement in their eyes, and I’m not even asking for pain killers or anything.

Pain while resting, pain while not resting, pain after being active, pain, pain, pain. I honestly don’t know what to do anymore, I’m just 23 and I’m already exhausted by the idea of living like this and not having a diagnosis makes me even more anxious. Also the fact that I’m constantly in pain (at least 3-4/10) everyday and it feels like it’s all in my head when I know how it has wrecked me. I got a job opportunity the other day and I need to be happy and I can’t help but feel anxious because idk wtf is wrong with me. How am I going to live life like this? I’m filled with resentment, and the worst part is; I know I have potential. I know I can do stuff when I push through, I got the highest points on each and every maths exam my last year of school and that for what? Idk what I should do anymore.