I (23F) started therapy a few weeks ago. I've been wanting to start for a few years, and finally my partner talked me into finally make the move. I've always had an issue internalizing negative emotions, and it's led to years of resentment that I honestly am just starting to sort out. Amongst other things I want to work through, this is the biggest at the moment, I think. So I'm proud of myself and happy that I'm going, I was really eager to start.
Now that I've started, I'm feeling myself wanting to stop. As in, feeling kind of down as my appointments get closer, and being pretty happy when I get them over with.
Before anyone asks, I don't think it's my therapist. The first therapist I started with, I met with twice. It didn't feel like the right fit, I just felt like they were reading from a paper and that their perspective was absent and/or disconnected. I decided to try with another therapist, and she's wonderful! We've met twice and she's attentive, very knowledgeable, overall great.
My question is, is that normal? Has anyone else felt that way when starting therapy? I realize I'm a pretty avoidant person, especially when it's things that feel "big", so I'm not surprised that I already want to abandon therapy. Now that I can say I started, I feel like I want to be done with it already. And I don't plan on quitting, it's just that the anxiety isn't surrounding starting anymore, I think it's now about actually doing the work that seems so off-putting?
I guess this is something I can talk about with my therapist this week, but I'd love to hear others' input!