Tired of dragging this disease along
I was diagnosed with Crohn's 14 years ago and went through a few bad flare-ups back then, but thankfully I've been in remission for the past decade. But somehow I'm still on azathioprine and am practically forced to take a colonoscopy every other year. My lab tests are always good except for mild anemia.
I have really bad anxiety and depression, and whenever colonoscopy season comes around I want to kill myself (I have really bad experiences with colonoscopy-prep&procedure). I got into a fight with my last doctor because I suggested we spread out the colonoscopy to every 3 years (to be honest I'd like 4 or 5 years in between) and he did not agree because there is no such protocol.
To quit azaprine, I don't stand a chance of spacing out the colonoscopies since they have to check if I'm okay but I just feel so much more myself without all the pills and the constant fear of near-death-like colonoscopies. I know I should be thankful that I'm not feeling sick, but is anyone else just tired by this constant harassment?