Attachement to Dwarkadhish
I was grown up in a family where Lord Krishna was worshipped in balkrishna form. Stories of vrindavan and defeating Kansa. Bhajans were also around balgopala. Whereas, my wife who is from Gujarat is also a Krishna Bhakt but the difference between us is she and her family worships Dwarkadhish and also Shreenathji. I came to know that during her college time she went to Dwarka for the first time and that place awakened something in her she never felt. She got attached to the dwarka so much that she brought her parents who also felt the same way. Her father now watches live dwarkadhish darshan on YouTube every single day. I didn't understand it then and decided that I would feel it myself by visiting there. Naturally I was very excited to go to dwarka with her. But when I did reach, did the darshan and roamed along the streets. It was surreal but I didn't feel the connection that she and her parents have. I don't feel like going back, maybe because of the crowd or the mismanagement. Also felt something is very off with the priests at bet dwarka. Overall I didn't connect to Dwarka that spiritually as my wife does. I want to understand how I can be more connected to Dwarka. Because everytime she makes a plan to go to Dwarka, I make up an excuse or something. I know that it is wrong. I am spiritual, believe in god but visiting a mandir is maybe not my way of devotion. I feel more connected to Lord Krishna at home, doing meditation and worshipping at our nearby small temple.
I want to understand what you guys feel, did someone get attached to Dwarka, the way my wife did and how I can feel more connected to Dwarka and Dwarkadhish.
TL, DR: Wife is connected spiritually to Dwarka and Dwarkadhish form of Lord Krishna while I don't feel the same attachment. How do I start developing that bhakti?