I’m at my wits end with PCOS
At this point it’s not just affecting me but everyone around me. I gained so much weight and I’m struggling to lose it. I’m always anxious about what I eat and how much I move that I’m basically giving myself an ED but hey maybe it’ll help with the weight!! I’m just depressed and basically taking everything out on my poor boyfriend that is very supportive and tried to let me know he is here with me no matter what but my family isn’t this supportive. My mom basically wants me to be the skinny girl because she lost herself in college and she doesn’t want the same for me. Pretty sweet right? Except she calls me names and fat shames me like there is no tomorrow because that’s the way to go! My dad just says “eat less” and then I’m just sitting there with my boyfriend telling me I’m beautiful like I always was which helps a little. For the past month and a half I have been crying nonstop, I can barely get anything done, I can’t focus, I can’t think and I’m on birth control, inositol with the right ratio, taking magnesium supplements, walking, doing pilates since I actually enjoy, drinking water, if I’m not eating my protein I am drinking it, I’m eating my fiber and everything I am just tired and lowkey wanna just end it all but my bf is the only thing that keeps me going. Girl to girl we all know that mental breakdown we have when nothing in our closet fits, all my clothes were baggy now they don’t even go past my thighs!!!
Sorry if this was a lot I just needed to rant to actual ppl that get it if that makes sense.