I Need Help And Prayers From Lust!
I am a female, newly 23 years old. And as a kid I was SA by my older sisters. I believe in God and Jesus. And I've been doing so well - as well as I can do of course - being a follower of Christ. Ever since 2024 I've struggled with porn and masturbation and I just don't see a lot of christian women talking about it. I look and I try to find someone i can talk to or connect with and it's just hard because I don't know where else I can go. I know I can definitely go to God but I would like some connection with other women who have had the same problem. I've been 4 months clean, and I messed up again today and I feel so nauseous. I know what I did was wrong and it is caused from trauma as a little girl but im tired of my past trauma defining me.
I know this post is probably taboo, but I want to be able to talk to others about this, especially women who have had the same problem and/or experience. im not a hyper sexual person, I never even had a boyfriend or a potential one, and im still a virgin, by my standards, i dont count SA. But, I just don't understand why I do this? and why im not able to find someone to connect to with the same problem. I know im not alone in this.
I would just really like prayers, because extra prayers would be great for my strength and urges. and I would love for more women to share their story and to give me advice on how to fight lust again. If you need a name to pray for me Ry is fine.