Does anyone else remember coming into consciousness?
I have one memory from being 2 maybe going on 3 and I know it’s a real memory because I’ve had it all my life. I remember a bright flash of white that faded into the sun behind my eyelids and then opening my eyes in my parents bed. I knew intrinsically that it was my parents bed but also mine and that the baby next to me was my brother. I knew behind the closed bedroom door was my parents but I didn’t know what they looked like and that I needed to see them. So I tried to climb off the bed but I was frustrated with how short I was. It felt very strongly like I shouldn’t have been so short. I still got down somehow and waddled to the door but I was too short to reach the knob and that pissed me off again. It felt like It shouldn’t have been that tall and I wanted to cry against my will. But I also didn’t really want to cry- it was just a reaction that I knew I couldn’t help because I was a baby. I also knew if I started to cry I’d disturb my sleeping brother. Still I couldn’t help it and started crying, I heard my parents footsteps and felt excited even though I was in tears, they opened the door and I felt a lot of relief. And then I faded out of consciousness again. I don’t have anymore memories until about 4 but I also remember when I was able to start holding memories I was very excited. My whuela had asked me how my day was and I was able to actually tell her. I was playing awhile after our conversation and started trying to remember the day before too even though it was just small stuff. I was frustrated that I couldn’t remember every detail and felt weird that there was parts of my life I’d never fully be able to remember but still very pleased I could hold onto memory at all. I was a very internally conscious kid lol. But as an adult I have a lot of brain fog and actually known for my terrible recall 🫠 I feel like I’m more open to the concept of reincarnation because of this experience and want to know if anyone else has a similar story :)) sorry if this is worded weird it’s 4am and this has been keeping me up.