Afraid to eat 2,000 calories a day
Hey everyone. So to preface this, I'm male, 6'1, 220 lbs (actually down from 320, and it took YEARS, which I'm upset about, but whatever.)
And I've been in periods of 1,500, 1,000, and even 500 calorie intakes daily. Logically, I know 2,000 would still be a deficit, but I'm also tired of waiting to enjoy life until I'm lean. I just want it to be gone now. I want the social benefits of being a hot guy NOW. I'm sick of the wait. I'm still at a 40 inch waist, for christs sake. I don't know what it was when I started.
That's all I wanted, really. Don't care about being healthier, just wanna be super hot so I can't be a social reject anymore.
I'm also afraid I may or may not have wrecked my metabolism so hard that my maintenance may have shot down. I'm just so upset currently. All that work just to still be a fat fuck. And other people see it, too. It's the vibe every time I walk into a room. "Oh, look at this fat ass". And don't tell me people don't think that, they absolutely do. You know it, I know it.
https://imgur.com/gallery/Xpjrb4L
here's the progress pic so you all can see it, too.