Self development of the Soul and the lack of interest in external cosmic influences as one develops.
I have noticed recently that certain themes and events such as astrological changes, the solar eclipse and also world event have had less effect on my being. In the sense that I am aware of these things and how they can effect humans, yet I have through daily spiritual exercises over the last 2 years about reached a point where I am more self influenced internally than that of zodiacal changes, eclipses and full moons. A main exercise that has brought this to my attention is the „It thinks in me“, where one comes to understand that Lucifer and other spirits think though me, while my „I“ is the deciding factor in where I focus my awareness. This has lead me to be aware of thoughts of my own and those not. Many of the thoughts that are Luciferic tend to be dividing, judging and honestly quite obscene and violent towards others in „imaginary situations“ I once thought was how things would play out, only to understand the illusions they are and the effect that have on my well being, such as getting angry at someone for something that hasn’t even taken place.
Now on the other hand I have noticed how thoughts act on others, and there was a time where I would try to tell them certain spiritual understandings that they weren’t ready for, literally everyone I know in real life. And Ofcourse it does fell lonely and also troubling to see people suffer from a lack of strength of self as I still do at times. However the daily meditations I do at waking and before sleeping have developed my spiritual organs to perhaps a budding flower, I would not dare say I am a full blooming lotus flower.
With that said I feel the urge to share my path of development or rather the exact meditations I do taken from Steiners Esoteric Lessons GA 266 1-3 plus other foundational teachings require for the soul to grasp the conscious self and spirit. Having use anthroposophy to develop my own psychosophy, I understand many of the modern worlds problems come forma lack of spiritual understanding and connection, however I am aware of the Ahrimanic influence and phase we are going through before his incarnation takes place, specifically starting with the current „Gen Z“ generation and how they will fare in a decade or so and events one can see/feel coming due to our current situation.
I share this in hopes of sparking discussion with those who may have also reached this point, moving pass the loneliness towards serving those around them in the subtle ways we can as Esotericist to form an actual connected community of people in the real world. To this I ask be their any here who live in Germany? And also how are we faring as we develop ourselves to pioneer the future human being?