Am I Overeacting?
Guys, I went to Uni, dropped out and couldnt go back but started working. Most of my former classmates I bump into them one way or another and they look grown and advanced in the best of ways.
I am usually okay with myself and ofcourse am making plans to go to work but whenever I see them I get so overwhelmed with so much shame and embarassament of the thought of what I couldve become had I stayed in school and been a better student despite the fact that I have a fairly decent job and have a living, no kids etc. I dont know, as it is with everyone I dont feel satisfied with myself and I feel like its a big mental block because academic level is such a status, social class and economic level and because I know it, the worst feeling of inferiority just envelopes me BUT it is specifically if I bump into former classmates. WTH do I do??
The more I dwell on this issue the more I find myself making rash decisions that hurt me further. I can never talk to my family about this issue because I am already classified and compared to other siblings or cousins who have accomplished whatever and so now I find myself tied down by my own doing (not doing well in school), mental perspectives and the views of other people towards me.
What the hell am I supposed to do and how do I move forward? It's been years and this thing still hurts really deeply and I rarely talk about it.