The struggle with my dads diagnosis...
Well to start. I usually don't do this type of thing so i don't know where to even start. My dad was experiencing symptoms such as losing memory ( forgetting family member names, basic store names and even items) I feel like a horrible daughter because I just thought it was stress..... He reached out to my aunt and she took him to the er. We discovered that he had a tumor in his brain but the surgeon who operated on him said it did not appear as cancer. i have so much anger because they made it seem like it was going to be a walk in the park. The original plan was just to "Kill whatever was lingering so it wouldn't turn into cancer" before the diagnosis i did research on gilomas and stumbled upon GBM. I wish i didnt but at the same time im glad i knew what to expect. Im so hurt by all this and the worst part is everyone around me is telling me to pray and put things in gods hands but its very difficult for me to do so and have faith. Im not ready to live in a world without my father, he is my best friend, my protector and my rock. Anticipitory grief is real. Going into this knowing the outcome....... Still having to be a new mommy throughout it all is scary too. My baby looks for him when hes not home. This diagnosis has just made me crumble to pieces.