it feels impossible
hi all, i had made a post in here a few months back about wanting to quit following getting engaged. i’m 26 and have been vaping since im 17, i have never even tried to quit bc it has me so hooked. in january i ordered jones mints and the day i got them i tried a 4mg one, didnt even finish the entire thing and had one of the worst panic attacks later that day that lead me to be an anxious and emotional wreck for a full month following.. it sent me back years in regards to the progression ive made w my anxiety/depression. im still recovering from that episode and am sober off of everything except this fuck ass vape … i started juuling in high school, then switched to disposables, then refillable with 50mg juice, now i’ve been on 24mg for a while. i’m writing this bc i need some inspo.. how do i go about this without spiraling??? i’m so terrified at the thought of feeling as anxious and depressed as i was during that month. i’m trying to look at my future and use it as my motivation being that i want to live a long life with my soon to be hubby and have kids in the few years following our wedding. it is truly sickening i wish i could go back in time and knock some sense into 17 year old me. any help/recs would be appreciated :)