u/FriendlyKrista

Well, I know this isn't the airport so I don't need to announce my departure. But after 14 months of countless sleepless nights pouring over this subreddit, I think it's time to leave the group. We buried by sweet mom today and our glioblastoma journey has come to an end. While I hate everything about this horrible disease, the kindness, bravery, and strength I found in this group really got me through more than any "therapy." I never felt alone or judged while on this roller coaster, no matter how angry or frustrated or confused I was. Near the end, I was more consumed with mom getting sicker and sicker, I turned off my feelings and focused on getting things done. I almost felt dead inside and didn't even cry when she passed. I was just so exhausted. But today at her beautiful service, with all her wonderful loved ones around her, I watched the video of her life and it all hit me. I know it will get even harder when things are quiet and there are no doctors, hospice nurses, symptoms, and logistics to plan. I don't know if I'll know what to do with myself if I'm not worrying and planning. But I'm willing to try. And that means leaving this wonderful group. Thank you to everyone who shared their story with raw emotion and an open heart. Thank you for trusting me to listen, and for listening to me. Thank you for being my support. Even though I don't know any of you personally, I feel like I've met so many amazing people who have restored my faith in love and kindness. You and your loved ones ALL have my prayers, hugs, and gratitude forever.