Hi, diagnosed dyspraxic, (19M), and I feel like every part of my dyspraxia causes me more pain both mental and physical than good. My handwriting is abominable so I type for the most parts for assignments and exams and until now it's been pretty good until a couple months ago. I feel like my dyspraxia holds me back physically all the time, I try to be a pretty athletic guy but the muscle fatigue sets in very fast and it's so debilitating that I have to stop exercising relatively shorter than people of my fitness level due to the fact I physically can't due to the fatigue. It's made me extremely self conscious about my image as a whole and it generally doesn't help with my mental health. This might be another condition overlapping but I feel like in relationships I'm a lot worse than other people at maintaining the norms, I get overwhelmed quite easily in loud environments and doing anything with my hands makes me feel crap. I constantly worry about people being better than me and therefore I stress alot about relationships. I'm quite honest to people in a way that is sometimes too much, I told a previous partner that they made me stress quite a lot and it obv impacted them. I feel inadequate but also as if I always have to be in control so if I know a relationship is going to end, I try and end it to avoid the pain of watching it die out and wither away and it always ends up with more pain, I've been hung up over my ex for like 2 months now as I wanted to take a break before exams to allow me to fully focus yet everytime I see her I feel so bad about doing it and I feel that my dyspraxia and lack of self worth is the root of it.
I also played quite a lot of video games but I was also quite bad at those due to fine motor skills and I suck generally at most outdoorsy things even tho I love them like sailing and rowing.
Long rant but recently I was being chased by my friend and due to my sheer clumsiness I slipped and sprained my finger and cut a few others putting my typing at risk before a set of big exams. I'm so scared bc I feel like all the effort I put into learning how to touch type has been erased and I'm back at square one where my hands aren't co-operating with my body and mind. It's extremely stressful. TLDR- Dyspraxia causes a bunch of problems I can't fix and it inhibits my ability to be a confident guy.
How can I possibly fix this?