u/Friendly_Help_2194

It’s been a year together and I notice that she loves me more and more and I just feel the same, I don’t love her less but I wonder if there’s something wrong with me that I’m not as madly in love with her as she is with me. Her love has made me question if I’ve ever loved anyone & it sounds so insane or self centered or if this is some mental illness but I must ask but am I worth her love? Is there something in my chart that makes love always feel lifeless for me? I can be passionate in acts of romance and pursuit but once I’m there everything feels silent.

I have searched and searched to find out why every door feels closed of late. Since 2024 it’s been a constant issue after issue & growing up I’ve always overcame; homelessness, hunger, immigration. I got through school, started two businesses. Now yet again the trials loom over me & I wonder is this the plan for me? Should I just quit trying or should I double down and try harder.

I’ve never been a quitter but things don’t feel like they’re worth working towards anymore. It scares me a little but I want to know I’m not wasting my time with my next steps.

Any advice?