I lost my dream job and I'm devastated
I was non-renewed at a school I was hoping to be at for a long time. Watcing my students cry and express fear and frustration was a new level of heartbreak. I know I'm a safe adult for a lot of them. As far as I know, I'm the only queer teacher at a school with a large percentage of queer student body. I'm just so devastated and demoralized and tired. I've given that school my everything for years and I'm so exhausted at the thought of starting over again. I don't want to work at another school, I don't even want to go through application and interview processes. I feel like the giving tree with nothing left to give. But I have to do something because now I don't know how to pay my mortgage or keep the lights on come July. Just knew some of you would understand this flavor of grief.