u/Front-Elephant97

so its been about 2 months since my breakup, and i really really believe this is a soulmate level connection. like when i tell you it was insane chemistry. but over the winter he went through a severe, severe bout of depression, and ended up deciding to leave the relationship due to his depression making him believe he had to cut everyone off and severely isolate himself, believing he didn't deserve anyone or anything good. (very short summary for some context)

anyway i did a tarot reading on the whole situation and between the two of us. when i tell you the 2 of cups came out every. single. time. i asked a question about us or how he felt about us. i read this as the soulmate card. when i asked how he feels thinking about me, i got an insane combo of the 10 of cups, 4 of wands, 2 of cups, and 3 of swords. and when i asked for a clarifier, (did not need one there but it felt too good to be true) i got the lovers.

my next set of questions was "what would happen if i wait for him?" and the 10 of cups. which i read as the future, family, long term commitment card. which really threw me i was expecting the devil or three of swords. something bad to tell me i should move on, or i was wrong. but 10 OF CUPS?? i then asked "what would happen if i close and lock this door, and i got 10 of swords (hurt), the star reversed (missed opportunities), 3 pentacles reversed, and wheel of fortune.

when i did a bit of a timeline read, the next 6 months came straight out withe the lovers and queen of cups. when i asked to clarify if this love that is solidifying in the next 6 months is going to be me, the queen of wands flew out. twice. because i didnt believe it the first time. i shuffled between those as well. the queen of wands is the card i have to represent myself on my altar. then i asked "what is he thinking about right now?" AND THE QUEEN OF WANDS FLEW OUT AGAIN!! IT WAS SHUFFLED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DECK!!! AGAIN!!!

i asked my deck how he was mentally handling all of this currently and got death, the devil, the tower, and three of swords. and i've never felt worse for someone ever. like i don't know how to handle this, but we are in no contact currently, and have been for just under 2 months now.

but yeah, there is all of that. if im delusional, please let me know. if you think i read this without projecting too much, also let me know. because i feel like i am going crazy with this information and have no idea what to do with any of it !! thank you all :)))))

so i understand that the cards have specific meanings and everything, and i do align with some of them but when im doing a reading, frequently the same cards will come out and the 'original' meanings do not align, but when i study the image on the card, i repeatedly always get the same instinct that it means something different. or sometimes even has a completely new meaning. if i was to like go purely off instinct and not look at my tarot book (im lowk new to this so i dont know ALL the meanings just yet) would my readings still be accurate?

so my ex and i broke up about 6/7 weeks ago. since then i have obviously slept and dated other people, but he has had once consistent girlfriend for the 6/7 weeks. this is a friend who went through a breakup at around the same time as he did, and from sources, they are definitely both rebounding with eachother. my ex struggled with his mental health a lot and gets in back to back relationships as he struggles to be alone. i don't know much about this new girl. so about 4 weeks ago i did a fresh start, road opener, communication, love spell. and about 2 weeks ago i did a sweetening jar. i know that you have to keep trying at spells for them to work, but im a little worried. are spells like this... like bruises? they get worse before they get better? like every time i accidentally interact with him online, or someone brings me up he goes way way overboard with his new girlfriend. it's (in my and my friends opinions) extremely performative. and like it cannot be a healthy relationship they have. what other spells do i need to perform for him to come back. he has already realised what he lost. we both cried a lottt when we broke up and he was extremely distraught. but he is being stupif and impulsive right now. any help would be appreciated!! thank u ;))

so for the question of him and i which was just a general 'is there a future been us, and if so what will it hold', i pulled the 4 of wands, 10 of cups, and the lovers.

i believe he is rebounding, but whatever this new situation is i asked the cards about him and his new girl. these came out. 8 of wands (i believe it is 1 month into the relationship and he has travelled to see her already), hanged man reverse, death, and seven of cups.

i've pulled cards for these questions many times and up until now, they call came out EXTREMELY ambiguous. as in the high priestess, hermit, moon (both upright and reversed), and reverse world. page of wands reverse, two of wands reverse, and so on. you get the jist. basically there was no clear answer for the last two months. and now with the flower moon, i feel i've got a clearer answer. but does anybody know what it could deeply mean or if anything may come of it??

so this past weekend i had a first date with someone at my place, we just made some food together. i thought it went incredibly well and i really like him. he was funny and tall and cute and had a great personality and we really had a lot in common and got to a lot of talking. anyway at around midnight we ended up having sex and it was great. we both really enjoyed it. we fell asleep a little and then had sex again in the morning. we got ready as he apparently had somewhere at around 9, so he left at about 7:30am. he was talkative on the walk out, but when i dropped him off at the station he suddenly got very quiet and barely gave me a hug goodbye. anyway about 24 hours later i got the "i had a great time and you were really sweet and you did nothing wrong, but i don't see this working out long term. there were some minor interests that align with me that are unfortunately dealbreakers. i'm glad we both had a really fun time, but i just don't see it working out." but he didn't react that way to anything we said or did the day/night before at all. so 1) i am really confused and would like help with maybe a clarity spell? 2) i really really did like him a lot as we got to talking over text before the first date and would maybe want to cast a love spell to bring him back? he did unlatch me on the dating app we met on and unfollowed me on insta and removed me as a follower. it felt very quick to unravel as he gave no indication of it not working out on the date at all.

any help would be greatly appreciated please !!