u/Front-Elephant97

so as the title says, i'm a witch with OCD, ADHD, and anxiety. while i adore witchcraft/tarot so so much, and in ways it is really beneficial for me, it feeds me sometimes. it feeds my anxiety and OCD, and because of my ADHD i get a bit carried away with it.

for example: if something goes wrong/slightly off plan within my love life, my OCD will make me jump to the furthest possible conclusion about it with very, very little evidence and i will immediately start having to plan out this big intricate spell and do a hundred tarot readings about it. and even while im doing the spell, my mind keeps flipping to the worst case scenarios yet again, and then once the spell is finished, it never feels right because my mind wasn't in it the whole time.

or alternatively, i simply forget the question i asked while im doing tarot because of my adhd.
or my mind will flip in and out of a spell being a good idea after i've done it.
if a spell doesn't work immediately or i get unwanted cards in a tarot reading, i sometimes get quite upset.
i am constantly worried that whatever happens is somehow my fault due to my spell work, and that if something goes wrong, i caused it.

obviously due to all of this, i understand that i need to take a break from witchcraft, and i am. however, being a witch is something so so incredibly meaningful to me and over the few years of me being a witch, it has brought me so many incredible things and opened so many roads into my life. and while i do not want to stop forever, i do need to stop for now. however, the part of life i am in, is one where i would be doing spells to boost myself up. even now, i would like to do glamour spells or anything to help myself.

additionally, i have started taking SSRI's to combat this cycle, and i really hope i dont lose my witchy sparkle through this, but also god it is so needed.

have any other witches gone through bad mental health and had to stop their craft? it's just making me feel quite sad, hopeless, and a little useless to be honest. i made change using my craft, and having to stop seems to have taken away some purpose in my life.

if anyone has had any similar experiences and would be open to chatting or sharing, id be very very appreciative!!

thank you my lovelies !! ✨🌙☀️

had an insanely detailed dream of my ex (who recently got in contact with me after 5 months of no contact) last night. we've been chatting a bit but eventually told him that i was having some money issues and had to move back in with my parents because i couldn't afford rent anymore. he didn't reply to my text for 2 days. on night 2, i had a dream where i was at work, and he was at the bank across the road and transferred €800 into my bank account. he was going to do €8000 but i told him no. anyway, then i had the most insane feeling when he hugged me and kissed me in my dream. it felt so so realistic, the most realistic ever. as in i kept going back to sleep to re experience it. he still hasn't responded to my text though... what could this dream mean? i haven't dreamt about him, or ANYTHING really in weeks so this was really odd.

what could this dream mean?

so when i listen to a subliminal audio, can i have it on in the background while doing other things, or do i actively need to be thinking about it for it to work? i.e. could i play a video game or talk to someone with the audio playing in my headphones? or could i listen to it when falling asleep (although then i'd probably be thinking about it while im trying to go to sleep). is there any difference in ACTIVELY trying to manifest while listening to one, vs just having it on as background noise?

i dont know how to 'use' them lol, any help or advice is appreciated.

how do i burn a petition or a piece of paper in a house where im not allowed to burn stuff? i would need to do it to complete my spell, however the smell of smoke would be strong and it would set the smoke alarms off.

did a honey jar/come back to me spell last night and idk... i didn't feel anything after i did it? i did one on another person before and felt an insane energy pull, but none for this one. unsure why if it worked, or if i just need to do anything else?

did a honey jar/come back to me spell last night and idk... i didn't feel anything after i did it? i did one on another person before and felt an insane energy pull, but none for this one. unsure why if it worked, or if i just need to do anything else?

so i did some quite powerful love spells on my ex, but so long after the breakup i dismantled them (about 2 months ago). in that two months, i began dating my new guy who i love so much. however, recently new guy hasn't texted me back in days andy ex may be coming back into the picture, which really isn't what i want right now. i'm wondering if even if my spells were dismantled, if somehow something happened and i forced the outcome with my ex, and somehow forced my new guy to go away. what do i do?

so i went through phases where i did a lot of spells (both on myself and others) and some i dismantled fully, some i just discarded, and others ive probably forgotten i did. how do i know if any are still active? cause weird things are happening and lowkey idk if its because of me...

so i've been sort of in and out with my mental health and cast A LOT of spells recently. heavy ones on people such as love, obsession, communication, etc. it's getting a lot of crossed wires and i regret casting a lot of them, and want a fresh palette. i need to just have cleansing and protection spells for myself and hold off on the love/reconciliation ones until im in a better place. how do i do this?

so about 3 months ago i did some heavy spells on my ex to get him back. lowkey realised he was a loser, and ignored him. got rid off all his shi and discarded any spell leftovers from him. cut to last month, i meet this guy and it goes brilliantly. however over the last week, my ex's and his new gf's names kept coming up EVERYWHERE. not them exactly, but their names just kept appearing in public and it really freaked me out. anyway, about 2 days ago, my ex broke up with the girl i manifested him breaking up with (breakup seemed to me to come out of nowhere) and im worried i now had something to do with it. their names then stopped appearing anywhere. at around the same time, my new guy just stopped responding to me entirely. haven't heard from him properly in 40+ hours. is this a coincidence or have i messed up?

help please im freaking out

so i've been talking to this guy and for the first few weeks it was going great and he was really sweet. suddenly as of about 3 weeks ago he got really mean and disrespectful. he will flip between loving me and treating me like a gem to straight up insulting me. im sick of it. i think its just work stress that he's taking out on me, and he hasn't seen me in 3 weeks so maybe there is some sort of disconnect here? i don't know and don't GAF anymore. im done with his behaviour.

if i do a cord cutting, will it remove him from my life completely, or is there a way that i can do the cord cutting to just make him feel the loss and give him a chance to get his f'ing act together??

either option is fine, however if we break up, I NEED TO BE THE ONE TO DO IT !! so any advice welcome or if there is another better spell to be suggested, lmk! thanks guys.

so my hair went down to the middle of my chest before, but my hairdresser messed it up BIG TIME and now the longest pieces don't even reach my shoulders. it isn't what i wanted at all, all i wanted was a little trim and some layers, but she made a mistake and the only way to fix it was by cutting more and more off. i hate it so so much and i don't know what to do at all. i have a big ceremony in a weeks time and i know it's impossible for it to grow too much, but is there anything i can try?? i'm so desperate please help

so i don't wanna do a love spell or obsession or domination, but i want to make myself become more magnetic and attractive (in general, but somewhat specifically to him too). like energy radiating type of spell. just something to help move it along a little as he is in a state of avoidance, but i don't need a love spell because the love is already there. just something to soothe his nerves and calm his mind, and then one to magnetise myself to hopefully bring him closer.

any ideas??

so to cut a very long story short, every time i fall in love with someone, they become very sick in some way. my first partner developed appendicitis, in which their appendix burst and were in hospital for a week or two. my second partner developed asthma out of nowhere, had a horrible attack, and again was hospitalised for a while. my most recent ex boyfriend became severely clinically depressed once i began loving him, to the point where he wanted to 'act on it' (iykwim). he did not thankfully, but still, it was very bad. my current relationship, i recently declared my love for him properly, and since then, he has entered a state of severe burnout and become very mentally drained. i cant help but see a pattern here? its like i'm cursed so that everyone i fall in love with gets sick. this obviously has a lot of negative effects on me. but i really really want this one to work out!!! what can i do?? someone please help me before its too late and i lose him !

i'm 20 and he is 23 for context, and we live about a 2 hour drive apart from one another. so we've been taking for about 6 weeks now and it's going really well. he's doing all the obvious things and taking interest in me, making conversations, sending voice notes and photos, calling me sweet nicknames, all the good stuff. we both jumped into it very fast and 'i love yous' have slipped out of both of us which i know is very fast and red flag-y, but honestly it seems fitting. we have toned down on the 'i love yous' recently and it's more a quick 'love you/love ya' at goodnights. we have met up once for 2 days (he slept over at mine, and we had dates both days) and it felt like i'd known him a lifetime. he felt the same. it was so easy and so smooth, ive never known anything like it. he didn't let go of my hand the whole time, and over those 2 days let me be weird and don't judge me at all, and was the sweetest person ever. we went into a few bookshops where he didn't buy anything but took photos of the books he wanted. a few days after, i asked for those photos and bought one of the books he wanted. i might be seeing him this weekend (not confirmed yet due to work schedules), but im planning on surprising him with this book then. however, a couple days before we met in person (which was 7 days ago), i did update my hinge profile (where we met). i don't use hinge anymore and have since logged out, but before i logged out, i checked and he had updated his profile too. i honestly think it was a reaction to me updating mine as photos on there are ones i sent him personally over messages, which i feel awful about. but we hadn't met in person yet, so i didn't see the issue. now i see he has updated his, after we'd met which stung a little. but he doesn't know when i updated mine i bet, and thinks it could be after. anyway, i don't really want to bring this up to him, but i want to ask him to be exclusive with me and to be my boyfriend. any advice here? also maybe is there a cute thing i could do with the book to ask him in a cute and sweet way?