I genuinely do not know what to do with my life.. I'm 26 (F) I live at home I work at a minimum wage job because I go a degree in something i was not passionate about .. I think I want to go into healthcare but I don't know what and I know that its so expensive i keep backing out.. I applied to a respiratory care program at a local community college got in with a two year wait list and just had to do pre reqs and general allied science classes but once I realized I would be taking out more student loans and paying out of pocket for everything I backed out and didn't register for the fall semester I didn't want to start school knowing I don't have a car (I'm saving money for one hopefully will get it in june) I still live at home (me and my boyfriend want to move out) so I stressed myself out knowing I have so much not done yet I can't add anything more... I told myself since I maybe want to work in healthcare I could get my MA certification (but then I saw all the programs near me dont offer externships I would have to find them myself which is hard and the ones that do offer them are expensive 10k+) then I was thinking of getting my CNA certification working as a cna while working on becoming a LPN and once I'm working as a LPN for a little start working on becoming an RN (most likely accelerated program since i feel like I am so behind and have no time to build my future) but any RN school/program would do.. but then I think is that even what I want??? because genuinely I don't know I feel like I'm stuck being behind all my friends and everyone I know since they have careers and I'm still making minimum wage as a teacher assistant at a daycare..
also the cna to lpn to rn scared me too because everything i see online is people saying they hate being cna's they hate being lpn's they hate being rn's or that they regret doing the process of cna ➡️ lpn ➡️ rn and i feel like that process would work for me but then reading everything online scares me and i overthink.
did anyone else feel like they didn't know what they truly wanted to do?? like you just were meant to survive somehow some way while everyone else around you knew what career they wanted or they seemed like they knew everything what did you end up doing??? are you happy now?