I think I'm making a wrong decision I'm confused kinda emotional too
So I have two childhood friend they both went to allen raipur and I decided not to I dont feel like going I'm comfortable with online my parents also tried to convince me to go but deep down im hesitant to have my father spent that much amount my friend parents are rich like doing pretty well their father do business that are okay but they earn majority through intrest amount they give someone money and charge intrest on it nd all they are there for like 12 days starting week they used to call me twice a day and convince me ko "aaja yaha bahut maja h freedom, h comfortable hai padhai bhi bahut achhi h" apparently they have been studying 5 hours a day and I used to turn them down now they dont even call or msg me they say we dont have time for even ourselves nd all
Rn I barely study 2 3 hours a day cause im sick and kinda disturbed by their changed behaviour 🙃
I kind off hesitant to go also because it's a big sum and we used to be richer than them but since lockdown things were not really well and now slowly things are getting better I can put myself to put that kuch financial stress to my father
My father earn each n every penny from his work nd business
He cried when I refused to go cause he was feeling guilty that I couldn't go out like others cause he isn't earning enough how do I tell him that I'm the most proud person who never felt a bit of shame or sadness he always gave me what I want how can I complain 💔
Mind you he arranged the whole year expense from somewhere incase I wanna go he took me to allen and hostels for counselling incase I change my mind 🥹
Idk if i made the right decision by not going.......