I am terrified
Hello everyone,
I have been a part of this group on a few short weeks. I am currently sitting in the PCU with my grandpa. (76,M). He was told bsck in June after having stomach pain for weeks that he has a mass on his pancreas. It was at 3.1cm and now has grown to 4.7cm. He also has mets to the liver and small ones in the lung. He just received his first chemo on Thursday and on Saturday he was experiencing seizure like episodes and was medflighted to the hospital. They have done tests on him and say his creatinine levels are elevated and he can't eat or drink anything without spitting it back up. He is very weak and I am terrified that I am losing him. They said his kidneys were struggling a little bit and are going to do a swallow test to see why he can't keep anything down. He has lost 35 pounds in the last few months. I am so scared right now.
Update:
Thanks everyone for your kind words and support. My grandfather has decided that he wants to go home to be on hospice. My biggest fear my entire life is becoming reality and he wanted me to be his power of attorney to make sure this happened for him. This is the hardest thing I will ever do. I am not ready. I know I never could be. But I am making sure this is one last thing I can do for him. Please keep me in your thoughts because this will be something that is going to break me beyond belief.