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I'm melted. That was almost 3 hours of amazing and intense madness. I think I used a whole box of tissues crying my eyes out.

Starting with the final scene made watching the lead up so much more intense. I kept track of the days as I watched. I loved how we started with Esme narrating. It was such an intense way to bring us in. The omens for this episode started early. Esme declaring she didn't know if she'd be Esme Koçari in 20 years. Like she had been thinking about it, her future with Adıl and then we see her bloody wedding dress. Her refusing to take Adıl's hand and her shoving his jacket back in his face. I did love that we had the young version of them as an almost guard of honor as everyone got of the boat.

I swear i was screaming at my laptop when Adıl got out of the car for that gold brick. All I could think was floor it. Put your foot down and drive don't get out and look at the murder gold. It being number 5 was a surprise, I mean of course why would Adıl and Esme get even a moments peace. The way Timur pulled them all to the middle of that bridge. Esme fighting calling out for Fadime and Elani. I think Esme has adopted Fadime as her own child too, she seems to collect these children who didn't have a mother figure growing up. Look at İso and Oruç she looked out for them too. She couldn't mother her child for 20 years but that didn't stop her being a mother.

The first time I cried this episode was when Adıl yelled out for Timur to leave his girls alone. Esme had waited so long for him and he was acknowledging she was important to him while having her life threatened. The way they cut so quickly after this to three days before was wild. Total whiplash.

The first scene we see after seeing Timur grab them all being Esme running into the kitchen because she thinks Adıl has got the 3rd gold was evil. The way Adıl is downplaying it and she scared says so much. Knowing Esme is right to be scared makes it harder watching him dismiss it. I did love her teasing him and sitting him down to give him a talk on how to handle women now that he'd be living with so many 😂 was very funny.

Fadime and Elani scheming to punish İso more was both sad because I know İso and Fadime both really love each other and kinda funny. Like they are talking about breaking a man's heart and Elani is like uts just the revenge sauce 😂

I feel like Esme was almost prophetic in these first scenes. Her watching such a cute moment of all three them hugging and see them do it as child. Only for her to be holding a damn gold bar? Felt like some serious foreshadowing for how things were gonna go.

Her fainting scared me. I really wasn't expecting it. It was nice to see her being held by Adıl. He was clearly concerned and the way he held her hand was so cute. I loved how Adıl got really isistant about getting Esme and mri but I was also worried there was going to be something seriously wrong with her. Elani explained it well though, they lost a chance at a life. Esme has had 20 years of trauma. Her brain is tryna protect it's self with yese hallications but the stress is making them more twisted. I liked too that Esme was vulnerable with them and said she was worried she was mentally ill. Like she's not often vulnerable so it was nice to see her open up some more.

İso and Fadime's breakdown was emotional. The way she slowly took of the things that tied her to him and burned them was such a good why to symbolise her taking him out of her life. His face this whole scene was breaking my heart. The moment he realised that she knew about Elani was so sad. You could just see his whole face drop. Her reminding him they were going to choose each other yet he chose his family was amazing. It's the truth. İso could have did what Esme did and told fadime he knew the secret just like she said. I did also understand his point though. Loving a fortuna was hard for her and he was worried if he made it harder he'd lose her. It was well intentioned but stupid. He was a bit selfish but I do think it came from a place of love. I had predicted İso would end up a prisoner. I knew when she asked him would she have to use a bullet that he'd never make her do that. Seeing him tied up playing with his ring looking at the ashes of their love was so sad 😭

I loved how Esme defended the boys this ep. All I've seen online this week is how she should have said something. She did. She made them her red line. She let them be punished but because they are effectively her adoptive sons she protected them from the same fate as the others. I loved her reminding fadime she asked İso to not tell her at a point. She didn't force it when fadime disagreed by she still stood up for him. She also told Adıl multiple times that he wouldn't see her if he hurt Oruç.

Adıl's rage was interesting this ep. When he tells Feride that he's going to plant dynamite because no mother should meet their child on the road i couldn't help but notice he was putting Esmes pain as a priority. Her payback was more important than his. I almost wonder if this is some weird Adıl way of apologising for being a bit of a twat to her. Feride asking if Esme knew about the dynamite and him saying she suggested they do it when they had the henna night and Feride being like our Esme said that and Adıl's response being she's not the Esme you know anymore was interesting. Esme does seem different. She seems both stronger and more vulnerable. Adıl has helped her embrace her need for punishment. Her need for some sort of payback for 20 years of torture. Her fiercely protective side has got stronger too. If Adıl is a mountain bear she's definitely the mama bear. She has been defending Elani and Fadime like her cubs. She's also seemed more vulnerable. She's let things out more. You can see her trusting Adıl more. Her arguing she didn't want a wedding when she really did only to ask him if she has a dress and rings was cute. I liked how she pointed out to him that he's made her hurt enough that he should let her have the wedding she dreamed off. His reaction to her dreaming about them getting married was so cute too.

I love how well he knows her. He knows shes scared to get the mri incase she is sick. Him showing up for her anyway was important to me. He acted annoyed but he supported her without having to be asked. I do think her telling him too that's she's used to the lonieless and nit being forgiven was good. He needs to understand that she has been on her own truly for so long. She's been tortured by many for so long that someone being there for her is something she'll have to get used too. He was as relieved as her that she wasn't sick. Finding that third gold bar under her jacket was jarring. They just got good news and it already spoiled. It did mean that we got him calling her my beauty though which is so cute ❤️

I loved Elani calling Oruç about Adıl getting shot and I loved that he did try do the right thing and find out who it was. Oruç is a weird one for me. He did something terrible lying to Elani, bargaining about her mother, giving her Hicran and trying to stop her doing something she wants (Harvard) for selfish reasons but he does try. I need him to take the blinders he has on around his mother and Sıran. Like he's seen now Zarife is literally a devil. He does try to help though. He goes and gets gökan. Make shim confess. Tries to get his mother too. He does do his best for Elani. Maybe if he disowns the Fortuna's he might be redeemable. I will say his confrontation with his mother is what I would have loved from İso.

Hircan this episode was sending me. She's a loony. The whole I don't have a daughter oh poor me was insane and ironic. Elani was never her daughter and she knew that. She was Esme's and she lost her for 20 years partly because of her. Like she had a week or so without Elani and is mopping around. You'd think she'd realise how wrong she did Esme and Adıl but she doesn't.

Mushine working for Adıl to save Bechet was a really smart turn. The faces they made as they confirmed Zarife shot Adıl was great. They both knew it and had proof now. Esme being the one to want Gökan under the herd was such a mm funny turn. Adıl was right. A wildness has came over her since she became a mother.

I loved them telling Amerim separately and his shock that they were pregnant 😂 saying they should have waited did make me laugh. Elani and him ganging up in them providing heirs and siblings was nice too. This ep needed the comic relief. I also loved Emine and Elani embracing. It was so sweet. I think she's right too. Elani will be Esme's healing ❤️

The henna night was perfect. They both looked beautiful. Everyone was there. Adıl asked her to sing a song she wrote for him and after 20 long years Esme got to tell everyone what happened and embrace her daughter along side her husband. It seemed like a really empowering moment for Esme. The performance from Deniz in this scene was outstanding.

I loved that we got to see Zarife cry. Adıl giving them the ultimatum, blew wup fortuna or give it to Esme, and them finding out İso isn't in the house was so good. Oruç definitely has some of his aunts traits. He's trying to sacrifice himself just for the wrong people. I felt so bad for him when he heard the recording of Zarife but I was glad she was hurt. I loved Elani rubbing it in that maybe they shoukd get an empty grave from her to mourn at for 20 years.

The trail scene was great. Seeing serif get sent away for another 20. Everyone getting to tell there pain and Elani making the most heartbreaking comment about how she could have grown up Aleyna Koçari 😭 I do wish Adıl had went with them.

Watching the trailer I had assumed Esme told Adıl about how Gezep betrayed her, him actually telling Adıl of his own free will makes him more worthy of forgiveness from Adıl in my opinion. It was a stupid mistake he made as a kid and you can tell he was kicking himself for doing it. I am a little surprised though that he told him about giving Hircan money to run away. Like taht but is less forgivable. I felt bad for how side swiped Adıl was there. You could see the pain. He had assumed Esme didn't try but she tried so hard. I was a little annoyed all she got was a head kiss. It was lovely but I wish he had told her why. They needed to talk about it. He wants her to open up to him but he's pretty good at keeping things to himself too. I felt bad for Ilve but I also think in time he'll forgive her. He does understand.

I loved Adıl's revenge on Şerif. Şerif's first turn in jail seemed fairly comfy to me. Serif having the balls to sit and taunt Adıl. Telling him how he'd won for stealing the 20years. Even having Adıl be vulnerable and admitting he couldn't replace what Serif had stolen was a great lead up to him letting him know his plan. The jail time was punishment for separating Elani from Adıl, the solitary confinement for Esme and the prospect of Adıl waiting in that cell ever time for killing his father. I loved how he said every time he gets out hell be out back in. That loneliness he doesn't want is exactly what he subjected Esme to at that grave. The rope in the pillow case took me a moment but it's Adıl tempting him. Tempting him when it gets to much to just end it. Him twisting the knife and telling him he's marrying tomorrow was so much more poetic than just rage killing him.

The preparing a wedding bed was so funny. Emine shoving Adıl out. Esme tryna stop him and the both of them arguing and agreeing to leave it for Elani was hilarious. You could tell they both secretly want to stay there. I just hope they get the chance.

The marriage it's self was beautiful. Esme choosing who was there unlike her henna night was a nice touch. They both looked amazing. Esmes dress and Adıl's reaction to it was so cute. The people there being all the people who supported her ( bar Gezep and Ilve) was nice.i loved the minister giving the head of the house, Esme, the book i cracked up. I really liked how he said the wedding book was the story of a man who really missed a woman 😭 I need them to admit to themselves they love each other despite everything an that it is a love marriage.

Oruç signing Iver everything to Esme and still going j for a hug like he needed it and congratulating the was kind sad. He's been stupid and mean but I felt for him there. Elani snapping at him that she was Aleyna Koçari though was good. I liked taht. The second I realised Adıl and Elani had left Esme out of the plan I panicked. I honestly thought he was gonna drown them as they all watched for a minute. The tear down they got instead and the real plan were better. Elani telling them that she knew her real parents were looking for her unlike Melina when they played hide and seek was amazing. I felt really bad they sprung the recording of Esme signing to the baby she didn't realise was hers on her. Like the poor woman I'd already fragile that could have broken her. The plan to set them adrift actually seems fair to me. They have a chance to survive. Someone could find them. The same way there was a chance Esme could have taken her own life with the pain they caused her. Adıl ignoring Esme's request to leave Oruç alone. Him bating him into reacting and him getting shot was a bad omen for their marriage seeing as she said she'd leave if he hurt her boys. I also can't belive they cliffhangered us with Oruç 🤦 I hope he is alive. I don't like him and Elani but I don't want him to die either.I was sad it was during this cluster duck we got the first my wife 😭

The rest of the Timur season did not go down how I expected. I had thought he might have shot Esme instead of Adıl. I did think Adıl's flippant dismissal of a real threat would lose him either Esme or Elani but most likely Esme. I did not imagine the psychopath would tie all 3 up in front of lorry's to be run over and ask Adıl to pick one to save. I do think hell pick Elani. It's such a cruel punishment for a man who just got his family back together. I did think maybe if Gezep and Oruç where still about they may not have been caught. I did notice though with the 3 of them on the chairs you can see how they each handle problems. Esme is calm. Ready to be sacrificed. Elani is calling out for Adıl. She needs someone to help her and Fadime is fighting but hoping for help too.

It feels incredibly cruel leaving use with 4 people's lives hanging in the balance for 3 whole months 😭 I honestly can't get over how amazing the episode is and I have no idea how I'm meant to wait for the next season

I don't even have to think about where to begin for once.

I absolutely adored the way they handled Elani finding out. Esme going out of her way to make Adıl's dream about Elani calling him baba on the stone bridge was so damn sweet. And both of them singing the song as she realises that Esme really is her mother and Adıl her father. I also feel like this episode gave me hope for Adıl and Esme again. I loved how when Esme asked how Elani was feeling towards her, he pointed out to Elani that Esme spent 20 years crying by a grave she thought was hers and how, when she said that she wanted to scream at her, he made that noise as if to tell her off. All the hugging on the bridge really hit me hard. They finally embraced as father and daughter, and Esme's happy tears were perfect. And the way Elani signalled her to come join? Amazing. I also really loved how Elani knew Esme hid that they were her parents because of what she said. Adıl's face when he hears that. I think he regretted telling her she didn't think of her daughter when she hid the secret in that moment. Also, when he said that she was right, the hope on her face that he meant about hiding it was so heartbreaking.

I love how the shock of it all rendered Adıl silent. Like he couldn't do anything but cry and smile. Elani teasing him, begging her father to say something, and all he could think to say was "you stole my jacket" 😭 Her calling it a superhero cape, especially when she has called Adıl her hero before, was amazing and kind of like the Grinch, you could see Adıl's heart grow three sizes 😭 Everything about this scene was perfect. None of them raged at Esme. They all supported each other and had plenty of hugs and kisses. I couldn't have asked for better.

I have to say Esme telling Adıl "let's be parents and put our child to bed" was so heartbreaking but also so pure. She may be 20, but they didn't get these experiences with her and I truly believe they are going to spend the rest of their lives making sure she experiences everything she should have as a child. Right down to playing games and getting small cuts blown on with love.

Esme's prayer after getting her child back was pretty powerful to me. Seeing Esme acknowledge she had been leaning on God to support her and then thanking Him for giving her strength to endure everything. I feel like it was an insight into how she handled all those lonely years.

The reveal about Adıl's father was so sad, but I genuinely am proud of how it was handled by Adıl. You can tell after the teasing and how Adıl said they'd get married, how it was illogical that she wouldn't open up to him, that even though she was scared she wanted him to know. The way he instantly reassures her that she wasn't the reason his father died but she was the reason his killer was punished was so perfect. You could see the relief. Obviously this had been weighing on her. I do wish he had hugged her, but I was so glad Elani did it. I'm sad for Elani. She keeps finding out horrible thing after horrible thing about how she came into this world. I'm not surprised she wants revenge.

I find it really interesting that Fatih is the one Esme asked to tell Ömer that she was pregnant. I can't help but wonder if that has something to do with why Oruç hates him so much.

The whole marriage thing still grates on me some. I feel like this proposal at least was a bit less of a demand and more of an ask, but telling her he can't forgive her was kind of cold. I really hope even though Esme agreed to marry Adıl so she, Elani and Adıl all have the same last name, that he grows comfortable showing her love again.

Again, this episode really did soothe some of the hurt I felt for Esme in the last episode. Him reassuring her he's the one who can't forgive but Elani will was perfect. And him saying that no matter what she does his eyes can't look away from her 😭 I swear the cuteness overload was real.

I really do enjoy the shift we are seeing in Elani. Being able to forgive is great, but you also need to be able to know when enough is enough. The way she was Alyena Koçari while demanding that they rip the roots out of those who broke their branch was perfect. Forgiving 20 years of torture of your mother, heartbreak for your father and loneliness and feeling out of place for yourself would not have felt real. I did love Esme saying to burn the world tomorrow so they could enjoy their first night as a family 😭 Adıl's face watching his girls sing Esme's song was so cute. I know he's been cold to Esme, but I feel in that scene you could see the deep love for both of them.

The Şerif meltdown had me confused at the start. The way he kept saying how smart Esme was, I was like how can this madman still want her?! The turn it took though. Him saying he is going to make her, then everyone else, pay. I'm glad this wasn't another escape attempt like the trailer made it look.

I feel like this episode really did signal an end for Fadime and İso 🙃 I had some hope. I thought he might tell her. She gave him chances but he didn't. The fact she found out he knew seconds after Şerif warned her he'd betray her sucked. Şerif being right is not something we need. I think the bit that really sealed them being over was İso refusing to acknowledge it was his mum who shot Adıl. I still think he knew on the beach and yet in the car he says he doesn't know. I would have hoped that maybe an absolutely insane U-turn in his relationship with his mother and a hell of a lot of grovelling would make me want them together again, but for now I think Fadime is right to want a divorce.

I loved all three of them plotting in the car on the way to the Eid celebration 😂 It just felt so right. I've said it before and I'll say it again. Adıl is a drama queen. Him arriving seconds after Zarife offered Fadime condolences was too funny. Sıran really is a pathetic excuse for a human. When Adıl said he was there to make peace and she jumped at it, you could tell it was to clear her conscience over her role in taking Elani. The way they automatically divided into Fortunas and Koçaris as they sat was not a good omen, and I'm surprised that İso or Oruç didn't notice. It must have been hard for the three of them having to pretend that Hircan is her mother again. I'm glad Oruç questioned the whole "Esme said I have to forgive so we can marry" thing from Adıl. The moment when she says it's for him and he acknowledges he didn't do the same for her felt important. Like she has protected both those boys and no doubt will again, but they haven't really done the same for her. Elani and the little girl were so cute. It was also so believable that she would ask for another animal as payment for something horrible being done to her. Sıran finding out Şerif was arrested was so perfect. Like the way they explained Eid being about Abraham and how he chose to sacrifice his son and how instead she sacrificed the truth for her son. Amazing. It just summed up that woman perfectly.

Zarife is literally as subtle as a brick. You'd think 20 years of lying would make you better at it, but she all but told Adıl she shot him. The way she reacted when he said it was Şerif was the biggest giveaway. Also, her talking about mourning Adıl and lying about having him shot was so annoying. Like I need her to get some karma, like yesterday.

I feel like Oruç knows Elani knows something, but I honestly don't understand how he can keep claiming to love Elani. He's going to hide his mum and grandmother. He lies to her again and again in this episode. I feel like that date was her way of getting closure. She needed something. She really liked him and he lied again and again. She's just going to do what he did now and choose her family. Anyone angry at her for that has lost the plot.

Fadime telling the nosy woman in the house that Şerif was a child trafficker felt like karma. I swear that woman needs her reputation destroyed. She hides behind it. People respect her, pity her for things in the past, but they don't matter anymore. She knows the truth and has still protected that predator again and again.

I loved the scene on the beach. Adıl beating Şerif. Esme not feeling the need to stop him. Her trust in him had grown enough that she knows he'll stop. Her having that "I won Şerif abi" moment too was priceless 😂 I do think Elani's goal may have been the best. Telling him they were getting married and he'd have to cry in his cell about it was top tier.

This episode just gave so much good Esme/Adıl stuff. The comment about them working together to make those who made this life forbidden to them pay was great. I think we are starting to see Esme trust him enough to not feel the need to run off on her own. I also think Adıl gets a little kick out of seeing how much she loves him even when he's pretending to hate her. When he tells her what the gold brick means and she panics, you can see the slight smile on his face. I loved when Adıl said he'd have to kill Oruç twice because he'd have to heal his daughter's heart, and he asked Esme was she concerned for Oruç. His comment about hating that Oruç was upsetting her was another glimpse of the Adıl that loved Esme.

I really loved Adıl asking each of his girls what revenge they wanted. Esme wanting Fortuna was perfect. They did this to them for Fortuna, so taking it from them feels perfect. Fadime wanting a divorce makes sense too. Elani's surprised me mainly because to me it sounded like she was suggesting they kill the boys. I think Elani, like Esme, will want them punished, not dead, so it will be interesting to see what that meant.

Overall, this episode was perfect. I feel like they handled everything so well. I loved that we didn't get people raging at Esme and we have a family planning revenge together.

Edit : I forgot to add how much I hate Oruç telling Elani that she can't go to Harvard and using Esme and Adıl as excuses when clearly he doesn't want her to go. This man feels like his has some sort of claim over a girl he has cause immense pain too. It really pissed me off.

Also wanted to add that the dream about Gezep and Ilve was interesting. I do keep wondering how he's gonna handle confronting them. I think Gezep will be the worst for him. He trusts him completely. I did like that he saw Esme get shot in that dream too. It felt brushed over but obviously he did care. I also loved her told her it wasn't her he was dreaming about when Esme said he clearly would never forgive her hiding the truth

OMG I'M SO GLAD ELANI WAS HAPPY THAT BOTH OF THE ARE HER PARENTS! I can feel the tears already! And Fadime wants a divorce 😭 it's gonna be a wild episode! I love them plotting as a family!

Omg! I absolutely love that they don't know Adıl is alive 😂 the way Zarife's face falls when he gets out of the car 😂 this trailer gives the vibe that the episode will be magnificent ❤️ I can't wait. The three of them giving the Fortunas hell will be amazing ❤️

I've just finished episode 29. It was a masterpiece. The acting was phenomenal, like award winning.

The start of this episode had me worried. Adıl agreeing to that marriage so quickly was one thing but his constant jabs at Esme about his future wife were hard to watch. I knew because of the trailer he didn't end up in jail but watching Esme have that panic attack where she couldn't breathe made me feel like he was going to. I wish Adıl could see these moments. I know these are all part of his punishment for her and I agree he gets to be upset but this woman actually stopped breathing because she thought she had failed. Failed to stop him ending up in jail before he could reunite with his child. As intense as this was the morning on was just so damn heartbreaking. Her seeing the current Elani asking her mother to come find her. The way she saw flashes of baby Elani and young Esme chasing her child. Fadime looking on confused. I was bawling my eyes out. You can see her realising it's a dream / hallucination. The glasses on the shelf. When she sees them it all comes crashing down. I think Adıl seeing this was important. The way he ran to her held her. Knew that she needed to hear from someone else he wasn't in prison. You could see the relief when she touched his face on both their faces. This scene was so powerful. I can't get over both Deniz and Ulaş acting. The pain was so real.

The warmth and concern didn't last too long sadly. You could even see Fadime surprised as Adıl revealed his plan and Esme hugged him. The look as Fadime saw he wasn't hugging her back. I have to say I loved Adıl telling Esme that he was fed up of her sacrificing herself but he wouldn't sacrifice this family. No matter how upset he has been with Esme he still thinks of her as family. He wants her and Elani to be with him as his family. I think it will take Esme a while to get used to not being on her own because really she's only had herself for so long but now she has Adıl at her back. He asked her to trust her and not go running off on her own. I didn't love that he threw the secret in her face again as the reason he didn't tell her the plan but it does feel fair.

I loved how they came to the agreement about Esme going on the boat with Bechet. She used his own logic against him. I actually adored how he got down on one knee in front of her, not to propose, but to tell her to shut up that he's reached his limit 😂 Her zipping her lips in response just felt so much like the og Adıl and Esme, with their playful bickering versus the painful arguments we have seen recently.

Logically I knew Adıl wouldn't be dead, but I've also seen a Turkish drama before I was right there with Fadime and Esme. I was crying my eyes out thinking how soul crushing that timing was. I loved how İso made sure Fadime was OK and went running into the water to try save Adıl. İso really had added Adıl alongside Oruç as a brother to him.

Fadime attacking Zarife was amazing and long overdue. That woman is a snake. Honestly Şerif is terrible but he feels like a puppet. He gets his strings pulled and Zarife seems to be the one doing. When you consider how she ordered Gökan to kill him then had the balls to pretend to comfort Fadime. The way she went to touch her hair?! I was ready to throw down if Fadime hadn't.

Bechet's family ( bar Haydir) are actually scum. Why do they keep housing murders. Like why is Gökan even there. I honestly need them to get some comeuppance too. Like they keep benefiting from Adıl, Esme, Elani and their family being tortured.

Watching Esme's heart break as she rocked on that boat floor thinking Adıl had died broke me. The line that stuck out was "You wouldn't go longing for our daughter, I know it". I feel like Adıl feels Esme doesn't trust him but she does. That woman is in pain being emotionally tortured and still believes he may somehow be alive because she trusts he’s too stubborn to die without having hugged Elani.

Bechet calling Şerif and him saying Esme was losing it because Adıl died and Şerif's first reaction is to gather Oruç and Elani together to taunt them with Adıl being dead. The fact he had Oruç dragged out too? After telling the girl her dad was dead? Like I feel Şerif has always had this slight like hint of the potential to be redeemed. Like his actions had this desperate edge of a scared little boy but this was a full stop to that feeling. Again I think the acting is what had me feeling that little bit of sorrow for the murdering, kidnapping psycho.

The moment Esme sees Adıl's hand under the tarp was intense. I was there with Esme thinking she was hallucinating again. His water splash to prove she wasn't was perfect. This moment felt so pure. She was so upset and he could see that. I honestly think he was feeling empathetic because it's how he felt when she took the bullet. I loved the smile on his face as she asked him to tell her again that she wasn't dreaming he hadn't died. I also love how he made her find a way to let Fadime know he was OK ❤️ even though they never officially made up it's like he's back to the older brother of Fadime Koçari not Fadime Fortuna

I swear they were giving us those amazing Esme/Adıl scenes today. The bullet removal scene was amazing. It gave us them really talking. Not one sided screaming. He told her about Niko and the DNA results. I also think that scene was the first real acknowledgement we had from him that Esme could have died taking that bullet for him. Like he hadn't really acknowledged that was his fear. I adored how he didn't even argue when she pulled him to her after stitching him up and stroked his hair. It was too bad he felt the need to drop his smile when he woke up and realised who was stroking it. I have to say I loved we got the Koçari, geber dad, Esme, Esme da back ❤️ he said he loved it and it kind of feels a little like a safe way for two traumatised people to say I love you without being vulnerable 😭

I loved how Çakır hugged Adıl and said how he felt like an orphan again 😭 Adıl is so loved by everyone ❤️

Hircan in this episode really pissed me off. Her drugging Elani again?! Trying to get her to eat and still pretending to be her mother? Like even if it wasn't Esme's life they were going to build their new life on Elani would never want anyone to be controlled using her. If Hircan was really her mother she'd know that. Can't decide if she needs institutionalised or jail. Maybe both.

That bitch Zarife again ruining things and telling Şerif Esme turned him in?! Like why is this woman so hateful. I was genuinely worried he might kill Esme. All the emotions on his face there. The way he was moving was crazy, I honestly can't decide if he still wants Esme or not. The order to kill Elani feels like he's done but I dunno with that maniac anymore.

I loved how he's threatening Esme for reporting him and telling her they will join Koçari and him popping up with I'll come to you 😂

Oruç beating Bechet up to save his love was amazing. The way he cradled her but handed her over to her mother was amazing. He really was a fierce protector for Elani this ep. And that was while scheming and helping Adıl get in there in the first place.

Adıl beating on Şerif was so satisfying ❤️ like it needed to happen and then the way he sprinted to Elani 😭😭 both of them touching and kissing her, as if making sure she was real was so touching. My favourite line of the whole episode was Adıl saying "Come on, let's take our daughter home". I feel like everyone was waiting for that and we finally got it ❤️You can literally see Esme get some colour back in her cheeks and a weight lift off Adıl's shoulders.

The way they handled her like a child, transferring her from the car and then us seeing that happen with baby Elani was too sad. The moment that really got me though was Adıl collapsing to his knees cradling Elani, with Esme holding her beside him too, after seeing the crib he made her. The fact it's the same spot they collapsed in when he found out about their daughter dying in episode 9, 20 episodes ago, just made it so much more powerful. Watching them share their pain and joy over their sleeping daughter was beautiful.

Honestly I think this is the first time I've finished an ep of this show crying happy tears. It was a perfect end to the ep and honestly I would have taken it as a season wrap too. Don't get me wrong I cannot wait to see Elani's reaction but it just felt so joyful. Like something that had been building for ages was finally done. If you've made it this far in my rant, fair play. It was just such an amazing ep I couldn't stop. Pretty sure I wrote shorter essays in school 😂

I don't even know where to start. So much happens in this show I've started to take notes watching it. It started as noting words and phrases because I want to learn Turkish and turned into a stream of every thought I have filling pages. This episode by far filled the most.

I love Esme and Adıl. I really do but I'm getting dangerously close to hoping for a new love interest for Esme. That poor woman cannot catch a break. Adıl being so cold with her was breaking her heart and I know she asked for the anger but his takes were all bad. Telling her that she sacrificed everyone not just her self. That she was silent. It's all her fault. That he wouldn't hug the Esme who denied her daughter a father and mother, all of it was so out of pocket.

Not once did Adıl consider he was the reason for Esme's silence. He says she sarficed everyone when what she really did was sacrifice herself again to allow some time to prevent Adıl from ending up in prison. He's willing to force her into a marriage, one he says will be hell for her but he doesn't care, and he wonders why she didn't tell him straight away? If you look at it objectively Esme chose Elani. It's clear Adıl is the most important person to her so Esme made decisions to keep them together. She even acknowledged in the last episode that she's die to bring them together. Esme chose Elani, Adıl chose anger. He chose digging into every wound Esme has while saying his mountain bear is licking the wounds she inflicted. Not once does he think about the wounds he's inflicting. He basically calls her a bad mother. Says she destroyed him. Claims she knowingly hurt their daughter and refuses to touch her. That's all before he honestly behaves worse than Şerif and tells Esme she will marry him. Even Şerif gave her a choice, not a good one granted, but she got to chose to marry him instead of letting Adıl die. He's telling her she will marry him.

This episode is the most shattered I'm seen Esme look in this whole series. She normally has this drive but instead she spent almost 3 hours looking broken. She lost her daughter and the man she loved while trying her best for both. That's why I was grateful for Fadime. I expected her to be angry but she was so thankful to Esme. The way she summed it up as Esme looking after her daughter from afar to protect her brother was spot on. I mean she did it to protect Elani to but it was all for protection. Not a selfish need to stay silent.

Fadime's support in this episode was the role I hoped Adıl would take. The more we learn, the more Adıl's accusations of Esme dismissing him for 20 years become obvious lies. Esme reported Şerif. She handed him in and his weapon for killing the father of the man she loved. She tired her best to not remain silent to see Adıl in prison and what happened? She was returned to Şerif like some lost puppy. We keep seeing Esme try and Adıl blame her for not trying that thing. Some day when he finds out everything she did for him he'll regret his words.

Adıl was right he tormented Esme enough. More than enough. Even though he said he promised this to himself he still told her she'd marry him and be in hell.

The only glimmer of hope I saw for them in this whole episode was how Adıl comforted her after the call from Şerif about Elani. That one breif crack in the "gentleman" composure was literally the only hint I saw of hope in this whole episode. I do slightly wonder is Adıl protecting himself. Like is he just so hurt hes pushing her away to not hurt her, but even that doesn't match all his actions.

I have no idea how this whole proposal From Timur is going to work out but there's a small part of me hoping if Adıl does have to marry this woman, because let's be real he'll never make Elani, that Esme will get a new love interest. Someone who will be a bit more soft with her. That woman has had the weight of the world on her shoulders for years. Having her daughter near, knowing she's her mother will go along way to healing her heart maybe even enough that she'll be able to endure without Adıl.

I hope it doesn't come to that. I still hope for a somewhat loving relationship. Not another forced marriage for this poor woman.

I couldn't help but think during this episode that Elani would be ashamed of him. The way he behaved was not it. The woman who took a bullet for him is just out of hospital and he refuses to let her go home, he brings her to his house only to act like an obligated caregiver not someone who loved her. Then he storms out. Running from his problems again, only to come back and again make this poor woman do something she didn't want.

Amirum even said about how Elani wouldn't want Adıl in bed with Timur and he did it anyway. He said he's the only one not allowed to make mistakes and yet I keep seeing him make them. He pushed Fadime away and without even apologising or forgiving he pulled her in again when he needed her. His hopping straight into calling Timur before even trying to find Elani is going to prove to be a big mistake. It actually feels more like Adıl is the only one allowed to make them.

I did love İso and Fadime in this episode especially the way he stroked his hair and produced some beads he has been carrying round for her. It was so sweet and I really do hope they stay together. The way İso supports Fadime is lovely. Even the way he tried to help Esme during her panic attack. He's helpful but also will always allow Fadime or anyone else to fight their own corner and quietly support them, only stepping in when needed.

Oruç running after Elani was both romantic and sad. He does care for her and he doesn't want her to be alone but ultimately he's the one who decided to tell them Hircan was her mother. Elani even catches her self when she gets too caught up in him. I wish we had got a little of the Fatih lore. Was hoping she'd tell him it's your brother holding us here.

Elani being an absolute menace this whole episode was brilliant. Taking parts of her dad and uncle and bringing them in to torture Şerif was perfect ❤️ All her clues were brilliant too. I did also love the little parallel of both Esme and Şerif calling Elani a carbon copy of Adıl. One meant it as the highest complement the other as an insult.

There's so much more I could talk about but this already feels rambling 😂 no idea how I'm meant to wait till next week. Or what I'll do when it takes a summer break 😅