Should I Seek Help Or Will It Be Redundant?
I don’t know how to start this, I hate reaching out for help, it has never felt right. But lately everything has started to feel overwhelming (I think?) I don’t really know for sure WHAT I feel but I can describe it, it feels like there is too much going on inside my head like my own internal monologue is set to 1000% volume and I am aware of everything happening around me, and its just too much, I sometimes feel like the only way to stop it is by simply ending it. In the past I would simply think of those “but how would ____ feel” and that would sorta help with wanting to do that, but lately I think about killing myself with zero hesitation.
My biggest concern is what if I am simply confused?What if what im feeling is normal and I am over-reacting? But most importantly I am scared to say anything and be looked down upon for it.
That being said, should i seek help or should I continue living like this in hopes this will simply pass, This sorta contradicts what I said earlier but I don’t always feel that way, when I hang out with my friends I feel happy and not a single negative thought crosses my mind, its only when im alone. So I feel that in the presence of another person I wont be able to ask for the right help.
What should i do?