u/GalacticQueen1881

Dearest trans folx

I see you
Hiding
Because I’ve been hiding too.
I want you to know
Your transness was never about
How much dysphoria you hold
Your pain turned into a pass
Hurt enough to be yourself
That was always a cis design
Their only language to grasp a piece of
Our complexity.
You get to be you and feel good about it
I’m learning to define my transness
Not through dysphoria
Proving to cis doctors that I’m broken enough
For their diagnosis.
I’m following my trans euphoria
The freeness I feel when I see myself
Not within a binary
But the excess
The magick

Dear trans witches
You get to be the alchemist who brings something
Unimagined
Deimagined
Disimagined
Transimagined
Into this world.
you are the alchemist they fear.

Hello everyone! I don't think I've ever posted asking for this type of advice, but I could really use some thoughts and opinions.

tl;dr I broke up with my boyfriend, and I would like some advice on spiritual work to protect my stuff and myself as he moves out.

I am a 34 year old gay man, and I just got out of a messy relationship. This was my first time living with a romantic partner. There was a lot of manipulation and gaslighting happening and it took way too long for me to see it or maybe see myself as valuable enough to break off the relationship. After some deep reflection and conversations with good friends, I finally went through with it and broke up with him. It's been very difficult emotionally and energetically. I feel so much negativity and anger being thrown my way. I try to cleanse the space when he leaves, but he doesn't leave very often so I've made my bedroom a sanctuary.

He has been in a rough spot financially, which made me feel really guilty about breaking it off. But I gave him 3 weeks to move out. (For context, he's not on the lease and never paid any amount of rent the whole 9 months he lived here). We're coming up on the move date and he told me he has a plan to get picked up by his brother. I have a feeling that he will do something sneaky or conniving on the way out. I have work on the day he said he was leaving. I'm worried he might take something thats not his or break something because when he moved in with me he told me his last roommate was threatening to sue him because he broke something. I even have a fear that his brother might try to fight me or something when he picks him up if I am home.

I am trying all the mundane things that I know to be trying. I have been clear about my boundaries. I've thought about next steps if he doesn't leave. I've thought about how to hide my valuable stuff, and I even put a security camera in my room because I caught him taking things from my closet and nightstand. I've thought about defending myself if I have to, and I'm really hoping I don't have to. I'm not a violent person. But now I'm asking for some metaphysical and spiritual advice. What would ya'll be doing in this scenario?