I think I messed up my life
I just recently joined ITE (yeah this shit sucks) after completing my N level with a horrible score of 11, I messed up my math and English badly I wish I could redo it but life have to go on, I was so depressed after receiving the result that I wanted to just quit.
I could have entered pfp but I scored a 4 for my English this makes me more depressed 💔
In the end I was forced by my family entering DPP engineering (the course I don’t want), the 1st of ITE already pissing me off (sorry if am kinda rude) the toilet was full of cigarettes smell which I really hate and the people over there are like weird?? I’d say
I thought that I had a chance to go poly after getting 3.5 gpa the 1st yr and started slowly accepting it aiming to leave this place in 1 yr but lowkey I read it wrong and found out it only for 2nd yr to skip to poly yr 2.
This was terrible enough for me, since I know I wasn’t talented/smart enough to do well in math.
If I change course in poly I had to learn extra year which I don’t really wants to but I had to continue with the engineering course to skip to yr 2 (aiming at) which I might struggle in poly 😭
I really want to catch up with the PFP people at least since most of my friend are in it, and mostly because I don’t wanna bring big to the age gap as it gonna be more and more awkward on the future
I don’t know what to do rn but the ITE has been easy so far teaching common sense I guess, am writing this out of frustration pls don’t take seriously 🙏💀