
Binge
Downloaded everything that I wanna watch this vacation with hostel wifi, cause my home got no wifi. What about y'all ?

Downloaded everything that I wanna watch this vacation with hostel wifi, cause my home got no wifi. What about y'all ?
I'm ugly my skin is not fair and it's dragging me down. People don't even make eye contact with me. I'm trying to fix my face but nothing's working. My gf left me between all this could be the fact I'm ugly...🫠 I have lost all my confidence I'm 19M. Everyone around me looks really pretty. I'm balding really bad and I'm broke. I don't know what to do I'm having lots of sui*ide thoughts but I love my family...
I won't even have a chance at relationship anymore. I'm trying hard but I'm tired of trying. I'm not a bad person I wanna experience things too but my uglyness is killing me I'm scared to do anything. I cry alone sometimes...
So, I kinda lost control cause my ex texted me saying she will be loyal and wait to fix everything it had been few weeks after that text. Naive me believed it. (The break up fight before us breaking up was due to a third guy her junior) So my insta was disabled I took it again today for a purpose there I saw them following each other after promising.I lost my control dialed her and asked her and the audacity of the bish to make it look like I did something "you don't understand me" bish think about ur actions ? Of course she never does. She blocked me and before that said don't ever contact me, I'm the one who got emotional damage. Then I found his acc I said everything I lost my cool *these guys used to joke about sexual stuff to eachother*. I felt so good calling that piece of wood those things.
We were gonna be 5 years into relationship this october. We were supposed to meet in few months and be together for the next few years for studies. Of course she's pretty she will find someone soon. I don't know what to do I feel so down like absolute shit. Hope I'll recover from this.
All those times I was with her, I just can't believe a girl can turn into something like this. Oh god when I first found those texts god I couldn't handle myself. She had him named "fav person" fav my ***