u/Glittering_Bed_5486

So I have 2mg of Xanax that I almost never take, when I do I break off a 4th of it. I also have 15 mg of Buspar. They look almost identical: both long white bars. Ive have been diligently not taking anything that would affect my ketamine treatments. But I do take Buspar 2x a day. I think I may have taken a 2mg Xanax last night in an accidental mix up and did my ketamine session this a.m. So 12 hours later. I messaged my provider, but she hasn't written back yet. Im using Mindbloom, this was session 3 and am on 90 units of ketamine. Did I completely ruin the ketamine therapy and its lasting effects?

Please let me know if anyone has had a similar experience or has any knowledge about this.

I had a rough day yesterday. There were some really intense, unusual moments with my family. Were usually tight knit and get alone. Not yesterday! It was hard and sad. I chose to go through with my ketamine treatment hoping it would help me process some of the emotions. In the first couple of minutes I deeply regretted it, just nervous I was going to have a bad trip. But, at that exact moment, I said "maybe its all ok" and its like I danced with that phrase for 30 mins, I said it 500 times I bet. Then, I got out of it and ever since Ive felt sadder and more depressed. Im wondering if that was a "good" session, like if it was productive and this sadness is to be expected? Or if maybe I should have not done the session given the intensity of the day? Let me know your thoughts!