u/Glittering_Entry3786

It’s just endless. My options are either to binge and overeat and spend money i don’t have on takeout and finally shut the internal demon up for a while so I can get some relief OR spend SOO much of my energy every fucking day fighting with the food demon in my brain endlessly every minute of every day.

I don’t even know whats better, having junk food in the house so that I don’t spend way more money on takeout, or trying to keep it out of the house so that I can have some successful days. I mostly screw myself over either way.

I don’t want to be doing this. I don’t want to fucking live like this. I dont even need to be thin. Just not obese and not destroying myself everyday with my habits.

Just finished the season and watched the Reunion. I was really surprised to hear that Chelley and Olandria had the reputation of being mean and that people really gave them a lot of hate. I know some
of it is pure racism but still I’m surprised that they received so much hate?? What did they do that was so bad?? They didn’t really seem better or worse than anyone else on the show in terms of kindness. If anything Olandria was the one who was treated badly by taylor??