u/GlitzyTity

So, I've been diagnosed with asthma for about a year, and it's killing me. It started out as random attacks, yet with a single breathing treatment, I'd be fine for days. I've stopped smoking as my doctor suggested, yet things have only gotten worse. I need a breathing treatment at least twice a day and my rescue inhaler at least once. When I had insurance, things were much easier to manage but thanks to changes made by the orange man in charge, i lost it. I had state insurance. So im paying for everything out of pocket. It's really bad after I wake up, and I find myself not wanting to sleep because of it, and when I do sleep, I have to have 4 pillows to prop me up and sleep on my back. On my sides, I wheeze, and my chest rattles. Right now, I have so much bult up mucus in my throat and lungs OTC mucus relief isn't touching it. I can't afford to see a lung specialist, I can't afford any of the tests to see what might be triggering my asthma. I dont want to wake up most days. it's gotten to the point that I'd rather die than continue living like this. I also have GERD and inverse and scalp psoriasis, so that adds on top of it. Google is zero help, all it suggests is to see a medical professional...well I cant afford that. I dont know how much longer I can keep going like this. I dont know what I want out of this post other than to rant to some people that may understand