Struggling with alcohol
I’ve drank since I was 16 years old I’m 26 now. Got saved April 6th 2025 and was unemployed the whole time and got really close to the lord. I’ve recently got a job, and I feel like I’ve grown away from the lord because I work every Wednesday and Sunday so I’m not able to go to church as much as I was, but thankfully we have one on Fridays I can attend. I wasn’t sober that whole time I was unemployed but I cut back ALOT, but now that I’m back to working and not going to the lord as much I’ve started drinking and lusting way more than I have since I’ve been saved (but not more than I was when I was not saved). My conviction is also gone the only reason I pray for forgiveness is because I know what I did was wrong not because I feel bad like I used to. I want to grow my relationship with the lord back but I also want to drink I just don’t know what to do, am I doomed?