are anti-depressants worth it?
hello i am 15f and i have been suicidal for essentially my whole life. mostly just suicidal ideation but i constantly just fantasize about ways i would kill myself in given scenarios. im havent killed myself yet because i dont want to embarrass my parents or hurt my friends. my only coping mechanism is smoking weed and tbh i am addicted. i want to stop because i am an athlete but im not sure if i quit i will be able to resist the urges. i do not have any interest in talking to anyone about my problems id rather just take anti-depressants. however im scared that if i talk to a psychiatrist to get prescribed antidepressants and i tell them about my suicidal ideation they will send me to a mental hospital. im also scared because ive heard horror stories that antidepressants dont help at all. i dont want to go through all of the trouble to try and talk about my issues to get prescribed antidepressants. so i guess im just wondering if its worth it and how much they help.