Always been my guiding light
In my teens through 20’s I struggled a lot with depression and suicidal thoughts. At 16, I made the decision to be straight edge because I was afraid if I used drugs or alcohol it would become the only way to make myself happy and lead to addiction or that I might act on my suicidal thoughts.
Now I’m 38, in therapy and doing a lot better. Even though I am doing better, I continue to live this way to honor the one good decision the 16 y/o me made (he didn’t make a lot of them, but he made one).
On Saturday, I finally got it memorized in ink how living straight edge has been my guiding light through the fog of depression I was lost in for so long.
If you struggle with your mental health too, I hope you can seek help. I love you, I don’t judge you for your life choices, and I think you’re a cool person.
XXX