I’ve been feeling kind of empty lately and I don’t really know why.
I’m not great at putting how I feel into words, so sorry if this is kind of all over the place.
I’m a guy and I’ve got one year of school left, and over the past few months things have just felt off. It’s like my life changed really fast and I don’t really know what caused it or how to fix it.
I used to feel pretty happy most of the time, but for the past 6 months or so everything’s felt different. My friendships don’t feel the same anymore, and I feel like I’ve been getting left out more, which has made me overthink a lot and not really look forward to going to school.
I also want to say that I have been smoking and vaping for a while. Before all this started, it didn’t really seem like a problem. But when things started feeling off, I ended up doing it more, then I took a break for about a month to see if it would help. I didn’t really feel better during that time, so now I don’t know how much it’s actually affecting me. Lately when I do smoke, I get this weird nostalgic feeling that kind of makes me feel sad.
On top of that, I’ve gained a good amount of weight recently. I used to go to the gym a lot (like 5 days a week), but now it’s more like 2–3 times, and my eating hasn’t been great either. I know that probably isn’t helping how I feel.
I’m just trying to figure out what’s going on and how to get back to feeling normal again. If anyone’s been through something like this or has advice, I’d really appreciate it.