i want to try shrooms again but ive mainly had bad trips
to start im not sure if im posting this in the right thread so im sorry if i didnt, but the first time i took anything shroom related it was just a chocolate bar, didnt see anything, only laughed a lot. the second time i took the actual shroom itself and i dont remember how much i took because i was not told, well i just laughed that time as well and didnt see anything. the third time i took actual shrooms again but i took 4gs and i saw a bunch of things like imagine a lava lamp filled all the way with just pink and purple and its just like flowing in waves, but when i went outside (it was nighttime for context) i immediately felt a feeling of judgement and despair i guess then the bad trip started. i ended up having a panic attack, threw up a lot, forgot everything from the time of 11 pm-3am. the 4th time i genuinely thought i was going to meet my higher power. i was just sitting in the living room with my roommates and we were all watching a movie (i ate 8 chocolate squares which i think was like around 3 or 4gs) and it was a scary movie (not my idea) and then at some point while i was watching the movie i started seeing things which i was cool with at first, then i felt like i couldnt breathe anymore and every time i tried to it felt like there was a weight on my chest and i just felt sleepy and wanted to close my eyes. so eventually after not being able to calm myself down and “control” my breathing i told the trip sitter that i felt that way and she told her bf (who was also on shrooms) and they had me sit in a cold bath which helped until i would violently shake even if i didnt necessarily feel cold. i also couldnt differentiate what was reality and what was the trip which was the worst part but anyway im sorry for the long read and i hope that someone can relate or maybe even help