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Including me, there there has been quite a bit of fellow residents I saw moving their stuff out this past week. My roommate left as well. I’ve been looking at places to stay and some look promising. It’s been a lot. But it’s hard staying here. I no longer feel safe anymore. I know this is unlikely to happen again but it’s the emotional baggage and paranoia that now comes with staying here. It’s like a chore going “home”. I have to look at everything because my building is literally 5 feet away to where the incident happen. I could handle passing the laundry room (barely) but a then a wave of sadness comes everytime I pass and look at the memorials. I always cry when leaving Nordheim and entering Nordheim, without fail. It’s depressing. It’s just not the same here anymore. I’ve been trying to avoid looking at everything but how can I? It’s impossible. Especially the building I’m in that’s close where the incident happened

What makes it worse is that the suspect was stalking other students and observing the neighborhood before it happened. It’s so scary to think about. While we have 24/7 police here now which helps, I just can’t be here and I don’t want to give my money to greystar anymore.

I’ve been staying inside more unless needed because I just hate having to take the energy to leave. I see peoples faces walking past me. You can tell the worries and grief in their eyes. It’s so much sad energy here right now.

I just can’t stay here anymore. I renewed my lease for nordheim a few months ago but now I want to cancel it. I have to look into more of of how to do this process. They can eat my deposit at this point. But in the meantime I want to start looking at other apartments. I don’t care how statistically I am more likely to get ran over by crossing the street than to be murdered. I don’t give a damn about it, this man is still at large and regardless I cannot stay at Nordheim when the parking garage I use is connected to the laundry room/building 7. I have to walk back everyday passing where the incident happened and instantly get depressed before entering my apartment. It’s heavy.

Anyways, does anyone have any apartment suggestions or homes that is under $1,300? I could look into?

It’s so sad. The incident happened right by my building. I was just in that laundry room a few hours before the incident happened. Everyone is unease here. I go to CLUE tutoring late at night and go back home at like 10-11 but now I’m too scared ever since what happened. I’m not going to stay out at night for a whileeeeeee. I wasn’t able to sleep obviously. I should have never renewed my lease.

I’ve seen the 60 day log on the UW police site and there has been 2 burglaries this past year at Nordheim. I never knew this until a friend mentioned that there is a 60 day log at the UW police cite where it shows all the crime reported at UW. I feel so naive to feel like I was safe here. I knew there is crime here around u village and Ravenna as I have the citizen app, but I wasn’t expecting this. Everyone please make sure to stay safe especially residents who live at Nordheim. Crime happens more than I thought but the team never notifies us.

I’m so overwhelmed and stressed right now. I’m taking BIOL180 and I bombed my first two quizzes. It’s making me feel really bad. I’m also taking a CHEM class and two other small 1 credit courses. All while working two jobs.

I quit my other job this week so I can finally focus on these classes, but the consequences of trying to afford the cost of living while being full time is catching up. I hope next week I do better on my bio quiz. I already had a midterm for CHEM and I’m super worried what my score will be since I’m not even doing well in biol quizzes. Those quizzes are worded so weirdly. I know I need to study and do homework but my scores on these quizzes just make me falls in periods of despair. I’ve never struggled this hard in years. I’ve been doing much as I can: practice quizzes and looking over notes. And I know my professor suggests to form a study group but I’m just too introverted to do that. In addition, I have so many time conflicts.

I know other students are in my situations, but I still feel like I’m the odd one yet. Like I’m just incapable of succeeding. Like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel. I just want to get good grade. Since I quit my job I hope to put more time into the next biology quiz.

This is just venting. Has anyone else struggled with the biol or chem series? Any light at the end of the tunnel?

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Edit: to give more context, I graduated from Highline through their career start program (different from running start) and got my associates and certification to be a medical assistant.

Whats different about career start and more particularly the MA program, is that you classes are tailored to be a medical assistant. This did not include chem or typical STEM classes. So this kind of made me behind. Then I attended a different community college and transferred to UW. I got a C in my chemistry during CC. I chose to do it online which was the biggest mistake🤦‍♀️.So that already set me up to struggle with my now Chem class. I know I could’ve taken 110 but the Chem class in my last CC transferred to 110 so I wasn’t allowed to take it and got pushed to chem142 instead.

I do not regret being a medical assistant. If it wasn’t for that, I wouldn’t even be able to afford CC, or move here to UW Seattle, have clinical experience, all while being debt free. And like I said before, I had been working two jobs this past quarter. It’s been hard finding an MA position that fits in with my chaotic academic schedule so I’ve been doing food service. And most of it has been eating up my studying time. So with all that context it’s just been a recipe for failure.

Why I’m doing these classes: while I don’t have to do these classes to graduate, my advisor tailored my classes to STEM in order to be eligible to apply to UW’s GCPD graduate program. The program to be a registered dietician. So I don’t have to do this. After all it’s a BA and not a BS. A lot of students in my major also wants to be an RD but the degree is a BA and the FSNH department knows this, so they are in the middle of planning to have UW make a BS in this major so people like me don’t have to struggle as much with finding the right classes. But right now they only offer a BA. I chose this major because it was one of the few majors that is relevant to what I want to do which is nutrition. But we had to change my plan so I can even apply to the graduate program. Or any RD program for that matter