anyone been in same boat no
Ngl, I’m deep in my feelings rn so please don’t roast me in the comments.
I’m over a year into my career joined after 4 years of uni and honestly, I spent a whole decade sweating just to get here. But now? I’m lowkey regretting how much I hyper-focused on the grind. I literally fumbled my uni gf because of it. The job is great, but the regret is eating me alive because I just want her here building this life with me. Looking back i realise that when I was with her I was at my most content but couldn’t see that at the time.
Back then, I was so obsessed with having zero distractions that I completely ghosted reality. I thought my whole future was just this job, and I convinced myself she’d hold me back and ruin my training. I was acting like such a total lad, but I’ve matured so much since then. Looking back, my mates were giving me fake advice that was actually just pure jealousy.
I can’t shake the feeling that I completely threw away the best thing I had, and I’d be enjoying this career way more if she was by my side. On top of that, the social battery is on 0% because I’m around people all day and have to be ON 24/7.
I actually reached out to her recently. She was super sweet and genuinely hyped for my success, but it’s a hard no on getting back together. She said it’s too late, she spent two years hurting over the breakup, and she’s not risking that again. It’s totally valid, but man, it has me feeling absolutely miserable. I really have changed and I’d marry this girl.