u/Green-Umpire-3916

Saw three, maybe more, linkedin posts yesterday about citadel summer 2027 😢 what is going on, my school hasn’t even started

He used to make actually entertaining movies, but his new movies have been so underwhelming. My guy needs to make a comeback, like an actual good movie

Am i the only one who doesn’t fw akhil akkineni!? I don’t think he acts very well, and respectfully, I think he lacks in the looks department as well. Granted, ive only seen one of his movies (most eligible bachelor, such a chopped movie), so im not sure if I can judge his acting if I haven’t seen more of his works. But idk he just seems like another nepo kid who got lucky with his family and reputation but just can’t pull through. He’s like a slightly better version of naga chaitanya 😂 but yea what do ppl see in akhil akkineni

currently coming into my 3rd year at a mid-tier college. i have an unpaid internship this summer and am preparing myself for the upcoming recruiting cycle.

can't crack leetcode. just can't. i've done almost 200 problems (i'm sure other ppl have done much more), but i just can't get the pattern recognition. if you give me a problem i've never seen before, i bet you that i won't be able to complete it. so i'm not confident in my technical skills for interviewing.

earlier this year, in march, i had a technical interview (my only 1 this past cycle and my 2nd one ever) for a company i would've loved to intern at. completely bombed it. the recruiter said to focus on DSA, and this was completely on me, but i had only studied leetcode-style questions. interview came, and they were asking me low-level design. got so nervous, couldn't think straight, couldn't even come up with an approach. the interviewers were really trying to help me, but i just couldn't get even a coherent sentence out of me. i was super bummed, as one would expect, after. it still continues to haunt me.

i'm working on a personal project right now. hopefully, once it's presentable, i can push that onto my resume. my family keeps asking to check it out. right now, i don't think it's there yet. not confident in how it looks, and they're pretty strict on feedback. last time, i showed them, maybe there really was nothing good to say abt it, but they only had critiques to point out. which i've been working on, but i'm just feeling really discouraged, considering there wasn't even one good thing to say. they keep asking to see it, and i'm just yk scared of their reaction. i appreciate their help, but i'm just feeling overwhelmed.

my family also just is really trying to help, i know. and when i'm not willing to share the project with them, they sometimes get mad. last time they asked, i said no, we had an argument (i was obviously in the wrong, since they're just trying to help), but they brought up the interview i bombed earlier this year. held it against me, which just brought down my confidence even more.

at this rate, i don't think i have it in me to get an internship for next year. i would be lucky to get some interviews, i don't even think i can pass them though.

any advice? thank you so much for reading all this.

hi guys, thanks for checking this post out. as the title implies, this post is gonna be a bit of a rant. i'm sure you guys have encountered numerous posts like this, so i'm incredibly sorry, but i really needed a place to just blurt out my thoughts and ask for advice 🙏

for a little bit of context, i'm a second-year cs major at a mid-tier US university. i've been applying to internships since my freshman year. during my freshman year, i applied to ~100 summer internships and received 1 interview. didn't do as well as i hoped and didn't receive an offer. during my second year, i applied to around ~200 internships, received a last-minute interview from a company i REALLY wanted to intern at in april, but completely flunked it and didn't get the offer. i did an unpaid internship throughout my second year and have another unpaid internship lined up for the summer.

i'm aware these numbers are rookie numbers. i've heard of people applying to many more internships, so that's on me. i'm also aware that there's this pattern of me getting a last-minute technical interview that i just can't crack -- there's clearly a gap in my technical skills.

i'm feeling a lot of things right now. regarding my skills, i don't have any confidence.

regarding leetcode specifically, there have been periods where i've done leetcode everyday, but they often end in weeks without any leetcode practice. there's just this on and off, and i seem to be unable to leetcode daily for months on end. i don't feel like i'm improving, it seems like my mind is unable to think a certain way, i get so demotivated, and so i end up taking a huge "break". i'm aware this is a problem, and i'm really not sure how to fix it.

regarding internships, it just feels like i'm super behind. it's like everytime i go on linkedin, i see posts from my high school classmates and from my college peers about their amazing internships, while i'm just jumping from one unpaid internship to another one. it feels like everyone has stuff going for them but me. i'm aware that there's a bunch of other people who are older than me in more unfortunate positions, but it just gets really hard to not think like i'm the only one behind.

i just don't know what to do. i'm trying to build a personal project. it was going well at the start, but i'm starting to lose motivation and haven't touched it in almost 2 weeks. i'm trying to leetcode daily, but again, there's just this on and off that i feel is inevitable. i just wish i had it going for me. i feel like i'm getting those opportunities to prove myself (like those 2 technical interviews, i know 2's not a lot, but it's more than 0), but i just can't get anywhere. i just can't get to where other people are. and rightfully so. i don't think i'm putting nearly as much effort as i should, but i just feel so so so demotivated and helpless.

pls help. i'm feeling pretty down, and would greatly appreciate any advice to improve my chances or even just to improve my morale.

thank you so much for reading, have a great rest of your day :)