Soon it will be time
#bengal #bluebengal #heartbroken #goodbyessuck #deathanddying
I found out a few days ago that my girl, Taji won’t be with me long. She has been more than a cat to me. My husband whom I lost in a horrific accident a yr and half ago got Taji for me for my birthday in 2010. I can’t handle the idea of doing what is ultimately best for her to not suffer but I can’t handle that I’m doing this without my husband. I am beyond broken that I know it’s not long and that she can’t tell me when. I find myself increasingly anxious and overwhelmed as I’ve not even properly grieved the untimely loss of my husband. Now this.
The most frustrating is that I’m in no position financially and have tapped into everything to save her. When I asked about the ending process and to make sure I have a vet in hand I was asked if I’d be ok (when it happens) if she goes with many other unfortunate cats to an undisclosed area for scattering ashes because I’m “poor” and the cost of me getting her back is high cost. And no I’m not ok with it. I want to put her ashes with my husband’s.
If I ever had a sh*t of money I would do what I could to open a rescue / ending your pets life beautifully instead of getting physically ill from money worries & not able to enjoy the last moments you do have with your furbabe. I’m so sad for others who have to go through this.
I’m sad for those who can’t or couldn’t take their loved ones ashes home.
It’s like throwing food out in a dumpster in front of starving people and telling them they can’t have it.