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So that's why I was Crying at Dawn when I couldn't sleep

I just cried out of nowhere remembering her

I mourned her more than a heartbreak could ever give me

I cried myself to sleep at the Dawn of July 4th

I just cried out of nowhere remembering her

It's been months since I last watched Your Lie In April and I still cry about her and I still mourn her to this day

Happy Birthday Kaori! We will always remember you in our hearts

This is a Personal Narration or Story but i hope you guys understand...

Don't hate on me for this

I'm just asking Advice on why this Anime is so Relateable

My Friend kept suggesting me to watch Your Lie in April because he told me It's great and that I would relate to it so much And he wasn't wrong

When I watched it at first I was like hmm interesting The Art Style is Beautifully Drawn and it even has Music too

It all looks Beautiful honestly

But as I continue watching the Anime I see alot of moments or dialogues that heavily reflect on things I have been through aswell as small interactions I have had

I don't know where to start

Seeing Kousei suddenly find Beauty or Color into his life when he first met and saw Kaori

Reminded me of the time when I met first saw a girl in School and when I saw her I felt something I couldn't really explain

She was beautiful yet energetic and she actually enjoys what she does

Especially with like small moments in The Anime from the Beginning

Whether that's Kousei telling Kaori that he doesn't play Piano that much anymore but he does it sometimes as a part time Job

It reminded me of the time I'd tell a girl I don't really enjoy or do my hobbies much anymore but I do work on it part time making invoices or selling products related to it

Sometimes even the theme of being unable to hear notes or your mind suddenly going blank and struggling during a performance due to PTSD and other things is something I find relateable in an emotional reflection type of sense?

Because early on I wondered why do I perform terribly than I used to? Why is it that when you're on stage your words and performances slip and you forget what to say or what to do and perform, and watching the Anime kind of made me realize why, especially the times I would constantly get yelled at or humiliated during public speaking while I was already mentally overloaded and overwhelmed trying my best and those things being followed later by tragic events

It made me realize why for awhile back then I performed terribly in many things at times

Although now that I have healed I actually am able to perform exceptionally well on stage or events whether that's public speaking,problem solving,quiz bee,dance groups, and so much more all because I tried hard to improve but also maybe to reach someone?

Heck,
And honestly the longer I watched the Anime the more I saw Kaori aswell as many of the things she says and does

It kind of reminded me of Canete a girl who helped me heal and recover mentally from past trauma aswell as also inspired me to perform well on stage and with many things too

Seeing Kaori make Kousei's world feel more Colorful and Beautiful reminded me of when I met Canete everything in my life began to change for the better, everything felt more colorful and challenging too and alot of the things that used to sound monotone suddenly sound either harmonious or fast paced and loud

I remember when Kaori would tell Kousei about how he should still play or perform no matter what happens or what others think of him

And it reminded me of when Canete would like give a speech in similar theme I remember she would talk about taking risks or trying new things aswell as living your life to the fullest without being bothered by what others think of you

Heck honestly that one scene where Hiroko would ask Kousei about who is it he likes since his feelings on stage says I love you and asked him if it's the short Haired girl (Possibly Tsubaki, wrong guess lol)

I remember there were times when I would perform on stage on a competition and i remember winning a Championship and 1st Place in a different challenge and my Adviser asked me who my crush is out of nowhere and made a blind guess too And I just said it's just an inspiration or something I appreciate rather

Also in the context of moving on from Tragedy and Traumatic events

Seeing Kousei slowly move on from the Trauma he carried as a child as he slowly navigates through it and learns to eventually let go of it especially on stage

It reminded me of the time I performed a Declamation on Stage and as conflicted as I was, I eventually realized to myself you can't blame yourself forever whether that's the tragedy of a loved one or failing to protect someone and during the performance even in was able to let go and express what once bothered and hurt me so much

There are so much more events and dialogues in the Anime that I find relateable

Especially when Kousei would perform on stage with like the Piano and many are deeply impressed by how he performs even though from his perspective you can see he's trying his best to reach out to someone or to atleast start playing again

It's very similar to when other people would like be impressed with how I perform aswell on stage with many things, many people I do not know would greet me, many people I'm not familiar with know my name, and so many people recognize me for some reason....

even some students tell me I'm their role model or idol or that I'm very talented and such, but all I did was try out things and take risks, maybe to try and tech her too

It kind of answered the question I would ask others

You know what it feels like to try to reach or impress someone when you're trying your best?

And especially when Kousei was walking in the dark and he would ask himself about Kaori, "Even though you gave me so much, is there anything I could give you?" It all hits deep to some extent for I have asked the same thing to myself at one point Like you have helped me recover and achieve so much but what could I even do for you?

Even the scene where Kousei was carrying a gift for Kaori and literally just her being behind the door yet after hearing Kaori with Watari, he didn't have much courage to go any further so he just left rather

Felt relateable to the time when I was about to visit Canete in a Facility where she was literally behind the door and I wanted to give her a treat but I lacked the courage to enter and to give it to her so I just left after

It all feels too Relateable

I don't know can I ask for advice? Again I'm sorry if I share too much about myself, I know this isn't an entirely a good place to be like this but yeah

Disclaimer:

I'm not saying the Anime is Identical entirely to mirrors my life but...

Alot of Emotional Themes and Events feel so Familiar from the Anime and I Wonder why is it so relateable?

I have watched alot of Anime in the past

They can have some themes in different Anime I have watched but I have never seen anything as Relateable as this

Also... Worst part is sometimes when I would watch the Live Adaptation of Your Lie in April, Kaori in the live Adaptation looks slightly similar to Canete the same girl that helped me recover and Inspired me to achieve and do so much which honestly just makes it hit way harder

Why is Argus Like this Honestly? I don't like Glazing Argus all the time? I know Argus isn't a really strong hero in the current Meta, but everytime I lose or Hardstuck in a Tank or in a Massive Losestreak, Argus always breaks that Losestreak Something about his Play style,His Kit, His Design feels like it's something that wins Games, I have to admit with Argus I get Gold or Silver Medals but why do I actually win more comfortably with him? Why do I win more matches It's like everytime I use this Hero I suddenly understand what the Art of War is in some way

I'm surprised that Argus can even carry a Match in High Rank even if there's 20 KDA Deficit
I Used Argus Recently and I'm surprised I carried a match and won a completely losing game, if this was any other EXP Laner? We would have lost

I have been playing MLBB for the past few weeks and I have been HARDSTUCK on Glory 70 stars for Weeks but when I used Argus my Rank skyrocketed to 100

Every Season when I'm Hardstuck on a certain Rank like MH or MG due to me constantly using Roam or Forcing myself to use Meta and what works

When I use Argus even in High Rank my Rank actually Accelerates Higher everytime I use him

I even remember being stuck in 34 stars last year and reached 50 stars all because I got too frustrated constantly adjusting to the Meta,using multiple Heroes that out of so much anger and frustration I just spammed Argus all day that I reached Glory Last second with him

Heck? Last Last Season I was ranking up high and fast and in around Mythical Glory I was stuck for a long time till I used Argus to finally break the stalemate

Meta is good? It can work? But honestly sometimes it's better to be happy rather than to be a slave Meta fitting with Society