how do i know when to cut off my family??
Ive been affected my entire life because of my horrible family situation. Ive lost my social life, my academic life, and my personal life because of depression. I finally am starting to slowly dig myself out of the horrible hole that they put me in, now that i am in uni. Its really not easy, but ive been going to 5 years of counselling and finding mentors externally too. i finally got my career and health somewhat on track.
my dad is unemployed for the past 6 months and is just not looking for another job no matter how much we beg him to. Even so, hes been paying the house bills , loans and my sister's sch fees w his savings and cpf funds. ive been working myself to the bone paying for my own living and hv taken on 2 loans to finance my uni.
Recently, my dad said he cant pay the house bills and loan anymore coz his savings are dwindling. My mother can only handle so much of the payment bc shes earning superrr little. I am starting work next year (hopefully i can find a job and earn enough), but it seems as if my mom and dad are expecting me to start paying for the house bills and my sister's education.
im being honest, i dont freaking want to. i love my sister. but i am so tired of giving my entire soul to this freaking family. Ive been working so hard to secure my future for myself. to buy or at least rent my own house. to finally be able to finance my dreams, needs, luxuries. my hard work. ive sacrificed so much for it. i need to pay off my uni fees too.
I dont want to give any of my money to my parents just because they made horrible choices. i just want to be free from all of this bullshit theyve put me through my entire life. i cant deal with this anymore. i have been soo resilient for so long but its just gotten to a point where i dont see any point of working hard. every time i feel like theres hope of actually living, my parents pull some bullshit to fk up my life. my entire week is ruined bc of the stress my parents put me through. it was supposed to be a fun week w my friends but no.
sorry i just need to rant and hear some kind words :(. maybe some help too if yall have any advice :(. i dont feel like talking to my friends bc idw explain all of this to them altho they r amazing. :( i really.feel like giving up rn....