Hi, i'm a 16 year old f, for the past 2 months i have been wondering if it is worth trying to get an autism assesment because after a lot of research i think i could be autistic. I always felt different from my peers and while talking with my best friend (the only person i actually consider my friend and he is the best person in the world who is also autistic) he asked me twice if i had ever been tested for autism because he felt like the emotions and reactions that emerged through our conversations were similar to his.
After many many research i feel like many of the traits described in the articles i read apply to me, but since some don't, i am not 100% sure of this so i want to know if the things i am gonna write below sound familiar to the autistic community.
• I have felt different from my peers since i was 9 and i have never felt included in groups
• it takes me 3 years to fully adapt in a new class with new classmates and i would like to change school because things are not going too well in my current one but just the thought of having to change class and classmates again makes me cry because i know i wouldn't be able to trust anyone or fit into the class, it stresses me out so much.
• if someone doesn't make me nap in the afternoon after lunch i genuinely lose it and stay angry and stressed the whole day (ik this sounds really stupid but it is really improtant to me because i need my nap to get through de day)
• i have never been asked to hang out by anyone since i started going to high-school and the only time it happened i declined the day before because i was feeling scared and anxious because my friend also invited people i don't know much
• i am really sensible to sounds to the point that if there is a sudden noise i literally jump and when people scream at me i want to cry and i am also sensible to strong sunlight because i get agitated by it and sometimes i have to wear sunglasses because i can't keep my eyes open and it gives me a headache
• when i tidy my room i organize things in a specific order but i also like to change it and keep the new order for a while then change again
• i always feel drained and tired after school and no sleep can fix that feeling, i need to stay in my room with music and phone in the dark to feel better
• there are times (it happens pretty frequently) when my brain and body feel empty, i don't feel emotions at all and i lose interest in everything, i can't talk normally and i have to force myself to do it but then it passes after a day or less
• i have t-rex arms and i used to walk on my tippy toes at home when i was in kindergarten and i couldn't stand socks (i still hate them but now they are more manageable)
•i hate tight chlothes because they stick to my skin and i feel trapped, i can't expecially stand things around my neck because they make me want to scream and i get overstimulated by them really fast
• i can't stand when people repeatedly bump into me, i get the urge to push them away and scream
• i can't get jokes if people make them with a straight face and i take things really personally
• i had a special interest for One Direction in middle school, i knew everything about them and talked about them all the time with my classmates who always got annoyed and told me to shut up
• i feel like i got more autistic after researching a lot about autism and i started feeling things amplified and getting overstimulated really easily compared to what i remember before
• me and my autistic best friend clicked immediately the first day we met and he doesn't make me feel weird or uncomfortable
• i struggle understanding instructions at school when there are implicit things
• my family often tells me that i say inappropriate things
• teachers at school ask me if i am ok when i have my neutral face or say that i stare badly at them even tho i don't feel like i stare badly at them
I am sorry for the long post i made, i appreciate whoever decides to read it all and help me💜