Feeling uncomfy
Hey everyone!
Yesterday I had a study visit, and I met some new people. At lunchtime I was talking to my colleagues about something, and I briefly mentioned that I practiced cartomancy, and that I had discovered a certain situation because of it. A girl who was with us became interested and started asking me certain things, questions almost as if she were testing me. "Oh, but do you say 'Goodbye' after doing a reading?", "Oh, and what days of the week do you do readings?", "Oh, don't do it with that deck, I know people who do, but you don't...", "Do you do readings for yourself?" and then she started a whole conversation about how she was with us, but if she wanted to she could find out what people were saying on the other side of campus, that she always found out who was talking badly about her and so on, and I believe that there may be people born with that kind of gift, a certain intuition, and she said she was from Umbanda. But the way she spoke, it seemed like she was trying to "discredit" me or make me seem less trustworthy, since I have several friends in that group who sometimes pay me for readings. Then she started a conversation about how I'm still too "young" to read cards (she's exactly the same age as me, we're in our final year of high school). I tried to speak respectfully, I believe that each fortune teller has their own way of reading, and that we should look for what works best for us individually. I'm not an Umbanda practitioner, I'm very interested in it, I find it a very interesting and beautiful belief, but I don't practice it, so I think it's logical that I don't follow certain rules that the terreiros (Umbanda temples) have. To everything I said, it seemed like she wanted to make it seem like she knew more. Here's a recreation of the dialogue: "Do you read for yourself?" I've tried it, I personally don't like reading for myself, I feel that my desires interfere too much with the readings, so I avoid it - "Oh no, you really can't read, that's bad, your energy will get in the way" yes...that's exactly what I said... "What day of the week do you do readings?" When I have to, I do them on Fridays, I don't like doing them at night, I always do them in the afternoon - "Oh Friday?...more or less...you can't do them at night, never do them after 11" yes...that's what I said...at night I feel that the readings become heavier and I don't like that - "Oh yes, but they'll always be heavy. And do you say goodbye to the deck?" I think that's more of a Ouija board thing, I don't have that habit, I cleanse the deck before and after reading - "Yes, but that's how it's done, you should do it. You're opening doors that you can't close later, you're not ready to read more than once a month yet..." go away, sparrows to the nest.
Then she started saying that within that group people were very badly spoken of (yes diva, we had just talked about knowing that people talk badly about us, you're not saying anything new), but that she wasn't in the mood to spend energy on it. It was noticeable that she knew what she was talking about, but the way she did it bothered me, it seems like she wanted to make it seem like I don't know anything, and that I'm a fraud. I've always been very afraid of doing readings for others, and finally when I started to feel confident, this happens. What do you think?