Psychedelics have made me obssessed with science, I wanna be isolated studying science
Psychedelics have waken in me, an inner obsession/ curiosity about the universe, science, biochemistry, neuroscience, physics, mathematics, etc. I used to be a young guy that dreamed about having friends, a girlfriend, going to party, experiencing social circles etc. Now all of that seems unnecessary. I wanna spend the entire night studying about the depths of science. My wet dream is to be an obssesed scientist, I wanna have my own lab and isolate myself from the shallow and superficial side of humans that prioritize looks, dominance, and popularity over creativity, intelligence and uniqueness. Unfortunately, socializing is very important for us as a specie, we developed that sense of being part of the "tribe". Maybe if socializing with humans was easier I will be open to it, but loneliness has pushed me to believe is unnecessary. One side of me is scared, the other one is excited.