contorted
another year come and gone,
what i expected, it has become.
what i fear, becomes so true
is there nothing more that i could do
yet fears like tears evaporate
hope blooms from a hell scape
until i spiral and fall
and i go and burn it all
to ashes: i scream, i plead
there is no one to blame but me
I'm empty, I'm broken
try to breathe in but I'm chokin
i try to learn this on my own
but I'm ignorant, I'm desperate
but everyone that i call upon
i've pushed away, i'm not proud of it
pride is something i don't understand
does it make me strong? does it make me a man?
cuz all I've gathered from this
I'm full of my own shit
no one ever said
that this is it
that's all on me
full of my own shit
desperate for a hand
desperate for someone to take me in
pathetic
i need it.
i need it
who's the bigger piece of shit?
someone joking or someone with something to say
something so meaningless
to saying i couldn't go through with it
too weak too small too meaningless,
to go through with this.
I'll go through with this
I'll go through with this.
you'll never know just how close you were,
to the truth that you danced around
but to you, did it ever occur?
did it? ever? occur?
YOU'LL NEVER KNOW HOW CLOSE YOU WERE
OR HOW CLOSE I WAS TO BREAKING
AT THE UNSYMPATHETIC WORDS
YOU BLINDLY SAY
YOU'LL NEVER KNOW HOW CLOSE I WAS
YOU'LL NEVER KNOW HOW CLOSE I WAS
YOU'LL NEVER KNOW HOW CLOSE I WAS
YOU;LL NEVER KNOW HOW CLOSE I WAS
UNTIL IT'S TOO LATE