TW violent self harm, sexual abuse
My brother is schizophrenic. He deals with commanding, abusive torturous voices that tell him to do things and he's fanatically religious. He had a conversation with me the other day and told me some really difficult truths and confirmed some sexual abuse that he had done to me and my friends and my sister and my mom while we slept. I won't go too far into detail but it was a lot of years of sexual abuse in our sleep. My brother now deals with a lot of guilt and the voices tell him he's going to hell etc etc.
A couple months ago he went blind in his left eye because he said he had a mower accident and then he later admitted to trying to pluck his left eye out with his fingers like the Bible verse says because the voice is told him he might be able to go to heaven and they will leave him alone if he does that. So he's now blind in his left eye and three days ago he took a circular saw and cut his foot off. At my aunt and uncle's house. He keeps doing these things to try to prove that he's worthy of forgiveness or something I'm not sure what it is exactly but it's definitely religiously motivated. He said that the demons that are torturing him were sawing on his left leg a while back. My mother's finally becoming his power of attorney. It's so terrible it had to get to this point to do this. Everybody's so traumatized. I just need to vent.