Awkward feeling before smoking weed
I've been smoking weed for almost a decade now (23m). I used to smoke daily but some time ago, about 2 years or so, i decided to stop because i didn't like being high before sleep (i used to smoke at night, after work or so). Now i'm smoking every now and then, and a joint can last 2 or 3 days which is really good.
The point is, now I'm feeling extremely awkward when i think about smoking. I get nervous and get a feeling in my stomach that feels like anxiety, but I don't actually feel anxious right now. It's like my body is rejecting the plant, well, the idea of smoking the plant.
I don't know what's causing this. it could be my beliefs about weed or the effects it's going to give me, or maybe is because I know my parents don't like it, or maybe I'm worried because I think it gonna mess up my sleep... Idk, but I feel awkward and I don't like it! Maybe it's emotion about the sole idea of smoking.
Have any of you ever experienced something similar? Any advice??