I found out I was pregnant about a week ago - also that it was an ectopic pregnancy (makes sense, I had an IUD), had ruptured, that I had lost enough blood to need a transfusion, and that I needed emergency surgery.
I've kind of been in a daze since. Actually, I wasn't in my right mind the day before either. So it's been a while since I've felt normal. I think I might be traumatized. I didn't think I was, but I just got home from urgent care for concerns about mottled skin, where I had a full on panic attack in triage. I've had panic attacks before, but usually they're as much mental as physical. This one was purely physical, like my body completely took over and my mind was left wondering wth was happening. Being in another medical setting must have set something off.
I think I only just now latched onto the fact that I had an ectopic pregnancy. You know how you can know something but not really *know* it?
It all happened so fast, and thank god everyone took me seriously. But it was also very scary to be taken so seriously at an ER. I waited a lot longer than I should have to go in, so I was definitely presenting as someone in serious decline. I'd been passing out for hours on and off, thinking I was sleeping the pain off. I think I'd already lost enough blood to not be thinking straight. I couldn't move because it hurt too much, so I didn't. I even insisted on not going anywhere when my husband realized how bad it was (don't blame him for taking so long. I get really quiet when in pain).
Anyway, I went from thinking I was the most constipated person on the planet (Which was crazy of me to think, because I have very regular bowel movements) to learning I would need a blood transfusion, ambulance ride to another hospital, and emergency surgery all in about 5 minutes.
I haven't even begun to process the "pregnancy" of it all. I had an IUD, so it was pretty much the last thing on my mind.
I think it's all just hitting me now and I'm trying to figure out how to categorize this in my head. I'm sure there are others here with similar stories. How do you think about it all now?