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I’m 19F living in the UK. Moving into the adult theatre and acting world has been really tough for me. Recently I’ve had a lot of imposter syndrome after a really bad experience in my last theatre group.

I’ve been lucky enough to have some professional jobs. Including a role in the west end when I was 16. And being in a touring play at 17. As well as lead,supporting and featured roles in films from 14-17. After 17 though I’ve only had one professional job which was a commercial for a few days.

It wasn’t really and issue I wanted to develop my skills before entering the adult acting and theatre world anyway and I felt really confident in myself at that point after so many achievements. I wasn’t able to go to college while in the west end show and the tour. But I decided to take a break after the tour to develop my skills and applied to Drama School. I got rejected. I was shocked I didn’t get accepted into even one.

I decided to develop my skills in adult amateur theatre groups. One we did a production of Beauty And The Beast. I got cast as the Beast. As there was no males in the production I felt this was really miscast due to the fact I was 18 and I’m not a baritone. But I was happy to get such a big good role. And it felt like such a full circle moment as my first production was chip at 7 years old in my youth theatre group.

But with the beast it was difficult for me to play him. I couldn’t hit the notes and they wouldn’t let me change them. It was so bad that the director asked me if this is my first ever production. I said no my first production was actually beauty and the beast and she said “oh did you play a villager or a fork or something?” And I said “no I played chip” she then kept pushing being like “aww have you not done a production since?” And I said “no I’ve done a lot of roles. Since I was 7 in theatre groups and professionally.”

She still kept being rude asking if it was playing an elf at a Christmas event or something as a few people in the group had done that. I said “no I performed \_\_\_\_ in the west end” she was shocked.

During the rehearsal process she kept making me feel bad about being the weakest link in the cast. I hadn’t been to open about my professional roles so as not to seem like I’m bragging but after that she kept bringing it up in front of everyone in rehearsals. For example one time I touched my hair during rehearsal and she paused our run to say “why are you touching you hair? You say you performed on the west end would you touch your hair on the west end stage.” I awkwardly laughed and she asked everyone else if they’d touch their hair during a scene if they was on the west end like I was. They shaked their head.

There was also a time I forgot my line (we weren’t off book yet but I had memorised it all to the point I decided to try it without my script and I’d forgotten that one line) I improvised and she stopped the scene again and got annoyed saying that’s not the correct line and if I’m “such a professional” how don’t I know my lines. I apologised. But I honestly felt really embarrassed.

During the rehearsal process too there was a 17 year old who was playing chip who was better than me. She was really talented as well as the right fit for Chip. During the process she got accepted to a drama school for the next school year. Everyone was proud of her as was I. But the director said “wow you’ll got into drama school before the west end star over here.” And started saying about her being a really good singer compared to me. Since the production has been over I’ve not done anything theatre or acting related.

There’s been a few times I’ve got the courage to audition for both professional and amateur theatre productions and even student films and it’s gotten to the day before the audition and I’ve had a panic attack and not auditioned. Or filmed my self tape and hated it so not submitted.

Even with drama school I didn’t apply for this year. Submissions are over. I felt too self conscious and untalented.

I’m 19F living in the UK. Moving into the adult theatre and acting world has been really tough for me. Recently I’ve had a lot of imposter syndrome after a really bad experience in my last theatre group.

I’ve been lucky enough to have some professional jobs. Including a role in the west end when I was 16. And being in a touring play at 17. As well as lead,supporting and featured roles in films from 14-17. After 17 though I’ve only had one professional job which was a commercial for a few days.

It wasn’t really and issue I wanted to develop my skills before entering the adult acting and theatre world anyway and I felt really confident in myself at that point after so many achievements. I wasn’t able to go to college while in the west end show and the tour. But I decided to take a break after the tour to develop my skills and applied to Drama School. I got rejected. I was shocked I didn’t get accepted into even one.

I decided to develop my skills in adult amateur theatre groups. One we did a production of Beauty And The Beast. I got cast as the Beast. As there was no males in the production I felt this was really miscast due to the fact I was 18 and I’m not a baritone. But I was happy to get such a big good role. And it felt like such a full circle moment as my first production was chip at 7 years old in my youth theatre group.

But with the beast it was difficult for me to play him. I couldn’t hit the notes and they wouldn’t let me change them. It was so bad that the director asked me if this is my first ever production. I said no my first production was actually beauty and the beast and she said “oh did you play a villager or a fork or something?” And I said “no I played chip” she then kept pushing being like “aww have you not done a production since?” And I said “no I’ve done a lot of roles. Since I was 7 in theatre groups and professionally.”

She still kept being rude asking if it was playing an elf at a Christmas event or something as a few people in the group had done that. I said “no I performed \_\_\_\_ in the west end” she was shocked.

During the rehearsal process she kept making me feel bad about being the weakest link in the cast. I hadn’t been to open about my professional roles so as not to seem like I’m bragging but after that she kept bringing it up in front of everyone in rehearsals. For example one time I touched my hair during rehearsal and she paused our run to say “why are you touching you hair? You say you performed on the west end would you touch your hair on the west end stage.” I awkwardly laughed and she asked everyone else if they’d touch their hair during a scene if they was on the west end like I was. They shaked their head.

There was also a time I forgot my line (we weren’t off book yet but I had memorised it all to the point I decided to try it without my script and I’d forgotten that one line) I improvised and she stopped the scene again and got annoyed saying that’s not the correct line and if I’m “such a professional” how don’t I know my lines. I apologised. But I honestly felt really embarrassed.

During the rehearsal process too there was a 17 year old who was playing chip who was better than me. She was really talented as well as the right fit for Chip. During the process she got accepted to a drama school for the next school year. Everyone was proud of her as was I. But the director said “wow you’ll got into drama school before the west end star over here.” And started saying about her being a really good singer compared to me. Since the production has been over I’ve not done anything theatre or acting related.

There’s been a few times I’ve got the courage to audition for both professional and amateur theatre productions and even student films and it’s gotten to the day before the audition and I’ve had a panic attack and not auditioned. Or filmed my self tape and hated it so not submitted.

Even with drama school I didn’t apply for this year. Submissions are over. I felt too self conscious and untalented.

I’m 19F living in the UK. Moving into the adult theatre and acting world has been really tough for me. Recently I’ve had a lot of imposter syndrome after a really bad experience in my last theatre group.

I’ve been lucky enough to have some professional jobs. Including a role in the west end when I was 16. And being in a touring play at 17. As well as lead,supporting and featured roles in films from 14-17. After 17 though I’ve only had one professional job which was a commercial for a few days.

It wasn’t really and issue I wanted to develop my skills before entering the adult acting and theatre world anyway and I felt really confident in myself at that point after so many achievements. I wasn’t able to go to college while in the west end show and the tour. But I decided to take a break after the tour to develop my skills and applied to Drama School. I got rejected. I was shocked I didn’t get accepted into even one.

I decided to develop my skills in adult amateur theatre groups. One we did a production of Beauty And The Beast. I got cast as the Beast. As there was no males in the production I felt this was really miscast due to the fact I was 18 and I’m not a baritone. But I was happy to get such a big good role. And it felt like such a full circle moment as my first production was chip at 7 years old in my youth theatre group.

But with the beast it was difficult for me to play him. I couldn’t hit the notes and they wouldn’t let me change them. It was so bad that the director asked me if this is my first ever production. I said no my first production was actually beauty and the beast and she said “oh did you play a villager or a fork or something?” And I said “no I played chip” she then kept pushing being like “aww have you not done a production since?” And I said “no I’ve done a lot of roles. Since I was 7 in theatre groups and professionally.”

She still kept being rude asking if it was playing an elf at a Christmas event or something as a few people in the group had done that. I said “no I performed \_\_\_\_ in the west end” she was shocked.

During the rehearsal process she kept making me feel bad about being the weakest link in the cast. I hadn’t been to open about my professional roles so as not to seem like I’m bragging but after that she kept bringing it up in front of everyone in rehearsals. For example one time I touched my hair during rehearsal and she paused our run to say “why are you touching you hair? You say you performed on the west end would you touch your hair on the west end stage.” I awkwardly laughed and she asked everyone else if they’d touch their hair during a scene if they was on the west end like I was. They shaked their head.

There was also a time I forgot my line (we weren’t off book yet but I had memorised it all to the point I decided to try it without my script and I’d forgotten that one line) I improvised and she stopped the scene again and got annoyed saying that’s not the correct line and if I’m “such a professional” how don’t I know my lines. I apologised. But I honestly felt really embarrassed.

During the rehearsal process too there was a 17 year old who was playing chip who was better than me. She was really talented as well as the right fit for Chip. During the process she got accepted to a drama school for the next school year. Everyone was proud of her as was I. But the director said “wow you’ll got into drama school before the west end star over here.” And started saying about her being a really good singer compared to me. Since the production has been over I’ve not done anything theatre or acting related.

There’s been a few times I’ve got the courage to audition for both professional and amateur theatre productions and even student films and it’s gotten to the day before the audition and I’ve had a panic attack and not auditioned. Or filmed my self tape and hated it so not submitted.

Even with drama school I didn’t apply for this year. Submissions are over. I felt too self conscious and untalented.

I’m 19F living in the UK. Moving into the adult theatre and acting world has been really tough for me. Recently I’ve had a lot of imposter syndrome after a really bad experience in my last theatre group.

I’ve been lucky enough to have some professional jobs. Including a role in the west end when I was 16. And being in a touring play at 17. As well as lead,supporting and featured roles in films from 14-17. After 17 though I’ve only had one professional job which was a commercial for a few days.

It wasn’t really and issue I wanted to develop my skills before entering the adult acting and theatre world anyway and I felt really confident in myself at that point after so many achievements. I wasn’t able to go to college while in the west end show and the tour. But I decided to take a break after the tour to develop my skills and applied to Drama School. I got rejected. I was shocked I didn’t get accepted into even one.

I decided to develop my skills in adult amateur theatre groups. One we did a production of Beauty And The Beast. I got cast as the Beast. As there was no males in the production I felt this was really miscast due to the fact I was 18 and I’m not a baritone. But I was happy to get such a big good role. And it felt like such a full circle moment as my first production was chip at 7 years old in my youth theatre group.

But with the beast it was difficult for me to play him. I couldn’t hit the notes and they wouldn’t let me change them. It was so bad that the director asked me if this is my first ever production. I said no my first production was actually beauty and the beast and she said “oh did you play a villager or a fork or something?” And I said “no I played chip” she then kept pushing being like “aww have you not done a production since?” And I said “no I’ve done a lot of roles. Since I was 7 in theatre groups and professionally.”

She still kept being rude asking if it was playing an elf at a Christmas event or something as a few people in the group had done that. I said “no I performed ____ in the west end” she was shocked.

During the rehearsal process she kept making me feel bad about being the weakest link in the cast. I hadn’t been to open about my professional roles so as not to seem like I’m bragging but after that she kept bringing it up in front of everyone in rehearsals. For example one time I touched my hair during rehearsal and she paused our run to say “why are you touching you hair? You say you performed on the west end would you touch your hair on the west end stage.” I awkwardly laughed and she asked everyone else if they’d touch their hair during a scene if they was on the west end like I was. They shaked their head.

There was also a time I forgot my line (we weren’t off book yet but I had memorised it all to the point I decided to try it without my script and I’d forgotten that one line) I improvised and she stopped the scene again and got annoyed saying that’s not the correct line and if I’m “such a professional” how don’t I know my lines. I apologised. But I honestly felt really embarrassed.

During the rehearsal process too there was a 17 year old who was playing chip who was better than me. She was really talented as well as the right fit for Chip. During the process she got accepted to a drama school for the next school year. Everyone was proud of her as was I. But the director said “wow you’ll got into drama school before the west end star over here.” And started saying about her being a really good singer compared to me. Since the production has been over I’ve not done anything theatre or acting related.

There’s been a few times I’ve got the courage to audition for both professional and amateur theatre productions and even student films and it’s gotten to the day before the audition and I’ve had a panic attack and not auditioned. Or filmed my self tape and hated it so not submitted.

Even with drama school I didn’t apply for this year. Submissions are over. I felt too self conscious and untalented.