Having a real hard time getting to grips with this
I was prescribed last August for chronic back pain and migraines. Before being prescribed I was taking codeine pretty much every four hours - partly because I was hopelessly addicted to opiates, but also because they helped with the constant pain.
I decided to try medical cannabis after seeing a leaflet at the pharmacy. I applied, got accepted, and received my first delivery. It was flower and I was in disbelief that the post man had just delivered me weed. The last time I’d smoked it was about 10 years ago and I had to meet a dodgy guy around the back of a petrol station to get it!
Anyway, I’ve not been able to separate cannabis for medical purposes from the cannabis me and my friends used to smoke growing up.
It feels wrong, and because of that I feel like I can’t relax when I’m taking it. Then because of that, when I do do it, I don’t enjoy the feeling of being ‘high’. I don’t even want to get high, I just want effective pain relief and a small buzz that’ll help keep me away from opiates.
I wondered if it was because the act of grinding and vaping flower was too obvious (smell etc.), so I switched to carts, which seemed like a great solution.
A few months and 6 different carts later and I’ve resorted back to codeine as I just can’t get on with medical cannabis.
So, I’m posting this rant in the hope that there’s someone else out there who’s been in my situation and figured out how to ‘love’ their medication. Right now, I hate the feeling of being cannabis high, and it’s stopping me from making the most of this.